PreciousMomentsOfMe~

What the hell?! its 2009~

2009-01-07T02:06:00.000-08:00

Finally its THE year.
'O' Level and stuff~
i cant believe i m going to be 16 years old. . .
so weird..
i m sec 4.
it seems so unreal.
Like a dream?

anyway i have this Career Workshop on Monday.
its was fun and beneficial.
from the personality test they give, i have a D/C personality or C/D personality.
cox my D=C and C=D so what m i actually?
split personality?
hahaha

maybe..

i feel kinda depress now.
i wanna go to Japan and live there.
so i can restart my life.
then i can be perfect and nice.

now?
nobody likes me
i dun even like myself now.
if only i can restart my life....
.
.
.
.
should i close down this blog?

Coming soon - Christmas

2008-12-22T06:42:00.000-08:00

haha
i have finally watched Twilight.
its REALLY NICE.
ok it sounds a little exaggerated.
but its must be nice to a certain standard that even Loon ( not a Twilighter ) want to watch the next movie, New Moon.
hahaha

i suggest people who are sad to watch movie with Loon because she is REALLY REALLY FUNNY>

She has a great sense of humor.
while we are watching Twilight, there is this scene where Edward and Bella was about to kiss.
Guess wad Loon do?
She suddenly lean very close to me slowly.
Puzzled, i ask her what is she doing?
she say she want to let me have the 'mood'.- she was trying to create the atmosphere.

if i m not in the cinema, i would have burst out laughing.

btw, last night BBQ was....
hmmm ...
after that we went to eat HAPPY MEAL:D
hahaha
its my first HAPPY MEAL after so many years.
then, we drank the Mocha with cream on it.
ITS WAS FABULOUS.
when we walk back to the pit, the feeling was great.
the cool breeze, the coffee taste..
it was a pity there weren't any stars on the cloudy night sky.

recently i read a book.
there is this saying in the book and i think its kinda true.

True love is like ghosts,
which everybody talks about
and few have seen.

i guess i been reading too much romance.
but its Christmas.
i dun really wanna read those negative stuff during this joyous period.

oh ya
the Standard Chartered Duty was FUN.
but tiring.
i will never forget it.

Merry Christmas.
Will Santa Claus bring me present this year??
:D

MERRY CHRISTMAS>>>

Twilight

2008-11-30T04:51:00.000-08:00

I can't wait anymore!!
I wanna watch Twilight the movie!!
AHHHHHHHHHH~
Edward was like so COOL!
Hahaha...

recently i was like obsessed with Twilight..
i kept on bugging my brother to ask him to bring me to America to watch Twilight.
he was like O.0....
LOLX>>

lucky for him. i have found some distractions:)
its...KATEKYO HITMAN REBORN!!
its was quite nice and funny.
MOst importantly, LAMBO WAS SO CUTE:D

tats Lambo!!
btw i found out he has the same birthday as me!!
hahaha....

i m so gona get my hands on Twilight's Soundtrack!!
Nice:)

DUN MISS ME!!LOLX>>

i dunno?

2008-10-26T07:25:00.000-07:00

ok i know no one will read this blog but so wad?
as long as i m happy ..everything will be ok!

anyway High School Musical 3 was GREAT:)
watch it together with Loon, QY, and her sis, Jin mun and XL.
we all wear the real run '08 tee (red) except XL.
so LOON, QY and me = Wildcats
XL= West Knights
lol..no offense..

anyway i think the movie is nice is because i watch it with my friends.
Loon kept saying how XL looks like Ryan...LOLS
i could'nt help but laugh..sorry XL.

but HSM3 kinda make me sad...
the song, "Now or Never" remind me wad a total failure i m at that time..

worst of all, at the end of the movie,
Loon say:' next year is our turn.'
crap we are going to graduate le..
and i haven done something REALLY FUN.
CRAP CRAP CRAP.

btw i realised i m really my mum's biological daughter.
today she was talking with my uncle about some worker's attitude.
She was so PISSED.- i infer from her face.
She even hit the table.- OUCH.
She was so straight to the point.-PRO.
see~
she was SO my mother.
sounds weird?
but my mother always say i m my aunt's daughter, not hers.

sometime i really doubt whether i m doing the right thing for saying all those stuff.
but if i dun say it, i will choke to death.
i still hope we are still friends.
if not, let be acquaintance then.

enough of all these emotional stuff..

SUPER LOOK FORWARD TO KAT-TUN NEW SINGLE- WHITE XMAS!!

HAHAHA~

DUN MISS ME~!!LOL>>

bowling~

2008-10-12T00:56:00.000-07:00

yesterday after the Lunch, i went to play lan wif Loon
guess wad?!
we became couple again~~!!
Wahaha...
i mean in Audition... i m not lesbian..
maybe loon is...LOL
anyway we got best couple TWICE~!!
hahaha..
actually at the last game, we almost became best couple de..
but well.. SOMEONE ruin it~!!
argh~~

i thought i would be able to have a record of being the best couple thrice!!
BUT...!!!
Haizx..

then after playing lan we went to CSC and play bowling with QY they all...
well..
actually they are playing i m wasting money...
i got zero all the way..
argh~!!
then beside our lane, got tis really pro guy
and Tan found him kinda cool..
but i still think he kinda sissy...
oh wadever i m so depressed that i got zero ALL the way~!!
DANG...

by the way, Loon is a really good mood-spoiler~!!
i was reading a serial killer story and she kept on calling my name, making me unable to read my book.
so next time must tape her mouth~!!LOL

DUN MISS ME!!LOLX>>>

Death of Primary School Friend

2008-10-01T04:30:00.000-07:00

today i read an news article about a fifteen year old girl jump down the building together with a guy.

i first heard about tis, was at night ...

when i heard it, i did not really care about it ..

just another poor girl commit suicide..tats all.

when i read the news paper, i was stunned.

the picture of the girl was my primary school mate.

peharps she already forget about me le ba

i remember we skipped chinese class together before

not totally the whole class

but maybe one quarter ba

ya i know its long long time ago

but tis is my first time 'skipping' class

so ...its kinda hard to forget about it.

but i feel kinda weird

i mean i should not be sad about this.

its like she's not really my friend or wad

yet i feel kinda sad?

and most importantly, tis feeling sucks.

how would you feel when someone you saw before, talk to before,

and she seems perfectly normal to you

yet now she is gone?

Anyway, may she rest in peace.

my head want to explode liao...

never study till one for three or four days in a row.

headache will and visit you de.

Jiayous for tomoro's Physics Paper 1~!

British Council Teacher

2008-09-25T05:44:00.000-07:00

i should not be blogging now..
i should be studying but... haha:)

anyway today there's this incident that somehow attract my attention

today i went to British Council for my english lesson..
we had to bring this book for the next few lessons.
then , got quite a handful of students did not buy the book.
actually we are supposed to buy this book last last week ...

at that time , a man came up and asked if anyone want to buy the book.
of course, most of them said they buy it next week because they dun have enough money at that time.

at this moment, the teacher did something really amazing..
ok maybe not many will tink its amazing..
it sounds perfectly normal to some peharps?

anyway he offered to lent money to these students so they can buy the books.
the students did refuse but..
he still tell the man he pay first for the students.

the man advice the teacher not to do so as got a lot of them dun have the book, which mean he had to fork out a lot of money..
one book is about 15 dollars.
i think about 6 students never buy the book.
so the man said it is unfair that the teacher had to pay ...

i was kinda shock when i saw the teacher about to fish out some money from his pocket.
he was serious about it.

won't he worry that the students would not pay him back??
its the students' loss that they dun have the book for reference during the lesson
why should he care about it??
it was not his fault.

at that time, i decided that he was a good teacher.

some teachers are really ....
but some teachers are really awesome.

actaully CLK not bad...
sometimes...

actaully i cant really judge them???

GOODLUCK FOR EXAM~!!
JIAYOUS~!!

DUN MISS ME~!!LOLX>>

still emo-ing

2008-08-30T07:46:00.000-07:00

nobody knows who i really am
i never felt tis empty before

tats lyrics from ...
i forget the name of the song le.

i feel so sad now...
haiz....

when you can live forever, what do you live for?
good question
i dunno?

emo-ing!

2008-08-29T18:50:00.000-07:00

haiz...
i just make a fuss out of nothing??
if dun say anything, den people will think u do not care about it
if care about it , its like making a fuss...

its really hard to work together
need to care about tis person's feelings when you said something
need to care about that person's feelings also...
blah blah
now jumping off a top of a building sounds nice

i been really careful on how to say things in a manner that wun hurt people
i had tried really hard to control that bad temper of mine

haiz...
sometimes i really hate the way we work...
i wan to change ..
but they dun seem to care?
maybe they care?
but dun wan to voice it out??

i m really sick of all of these...

i made myself tink that they dun care den i dun care lo
but somehow..
i still...

i dunno...
why m i suffering here myself when its not my problem.
hmmm

okok must force myself not to tink too much.

life is really hard sometimes.
sometimes jumping off e building sounds nice
sometimes a bottle of sleeping pills enticing me
sometimes i wish i could just walk out of the gate

jiayous ba....

common test result

2008-08-18T03:25:00.001-07:00

Today, i got back my English and Physics Common test result
Amazing i manage to pass both~!!
usually i fail both...
haha
hopefully i wont fail Chemistry ba...
hopefully....

recently i m really hook on Edward and Bella.
To exact is Edward Cullen.
haha

they are actually characters from Twilight
a story about vampire fallin in love with a girl who attracts danager...
(a soon to be movie)
LOL>>

anyway the story is really awesome~!!
FABULOUS!
its must be really great to be Bella
able to become a vampire
have a vampire husband
ya they married:)

i m really looking forward to the movie!!
the trailer is really so great
the movie must be alot more better

if i have the ability to enter a story book and become one of the character...
life must be really great then..lol

btw last Friday was really hilarious
the speech that my seniors gave us was EXACTLY OPPOSITE FROM what Mdm Yaw said.

haha
CCA is important?
CCA is not important?
lol...

We, Express, more focus on studies, push all the work to the others ar?
hahahaha
so funny...
why would i go and call them and ask them to come down if i dun care?

yayaya
u can see their effort and cant see ours so u can make this kinda opinion.

when you guys said that...
guess wad come to my mind?
if tis is wad you guys see us den fine i will do it.
i m afterall a teenager..
lol...

no one ever praise me so far..
m i not doing enough ??
wadever...

dun care about them le..
like i care what they tink about me
once i m sixteen i m definitely goin to get the hell out of here..
definitely.

haha

2008-07-20T05:39:00.000-07:00

YIPPEEE~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FINALLY LOONY SAY SHE MISS ME~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WAHAHAHAHA~

MUHAHAHA~

CRAZY~!!!

...

NO MORE CRY~!

2008-07-17T06:14:00.000-07:00

hmmm..
the culprit is still not found out

during the maths lesson, i was really depressed...
at that time, i felt that it is really unfair to me
some suckers go draw my notebook, make me so upset...

at that time tis is wad going on my mind:
i really HATE THE SCHOOL..
they got so veyr values and yet...
they did nothing..
so those values are crap la?!

first i really hate those normal acad people.
they seriously give me a really bad impression
somehow i hope there's kira and he will punish those trash for me...

haha
i m a really vindictive person ar?
but when it happen to you, peharps u will be the same as me...
i used to think those people outside is really mean to say the NA people wad wad wad ...
but maybe they also experince something ba

...

we lost e nat com.
end of story dun wanna tok abt it...
my last com end like tat.
haha

my tears seemed to be dropping here and there...

2008-07-10T05:15:00.000-07:00

recently i found out that the sky (sora) is really beautiful
usually i wun really go and notice the sky...
haha....

anyway i m seriously slack ...
haiz...
my energy level is seriously low these days...

all becox of the dumb people!!!
those F**KING PEOPLE go draw and tear my book~!!!
they jolly well be careful~!!
cox i m a super vindictive person~!!!
GRRRRR

why they did tis to me??
WHY?????????

I DID NOTHING WRONG~!!!
I been really trying to be a nice person...
i wave to bus driver..
i see rubbish got try to throw...
i smile to people...

why on th earth these people do tis kinda mean thing to me??
....

sometimes i felt i m really unwanted...
i m only an assistant...
everyone can be leader de lo...
qiu yan can sub me
tan also can...

haha..
i just cant help to have this kinda thoughts...

anyway...
Thanks lots Tan...
you're a really nice person:)

yay!
i have already confirm tat i m unwanted le.
Loon tells me :
Den i dun touch your head and dm cox they are needed for training programme

haha

Are you willing to let your team down?
haha

haha

so u tink i will ar?

haha
haha

Watching movie at home together

2008-06-30T05:41:00.000-07:00

last saturday, QY, HF, XL (currently at Pula Ubin- JIAYOUS!!) and Loon come to my house..
we watch Koizora together...
well..
i expect that all of us will cry at the ending of the movie but...
Qy was practically laughing through out the whole thingy..
HAHA

its was really fun~!!
hey sOtOnGs we should do it more often
next time lets go someone else's house !!
HAHA...

haiz..
Kat-tun new ablum really expensive...
fourty-four dollars...
Sad. sad. sad.

I WAN KAT-TUN NEW ABLUM~!!LOLX>>>

sian...random~

2008-06-27T08:38:00.000-07:00

school reopen le...
haha...
dun really look forward to it..
well who in the right mind, will look forward to it?!
LOL~

today's normal friday training..
ok-ok lo
its just bring me back with some memories..
i cant believe i m fifteen now
sec 3
senior?
...

i thought i wun be shouting commands anymore...
i thought i wun be touching my FA manual anymore but today.. HAHA
shouting commands is seriously hard..
hmmm...

i m really worried that i will fail them...
God, please don't me fail them..
i will work hard on my command de.

...

lately i been really hook up on detective drama
there's this jap drama called Tantei Gakuen.
in this drama , there is tis actor called Yamada Ryosuke.
he is really shuai lo~!!
besides he is the same age as me lo.. haha
Fa Hua CHi....
hey..! i been really studyin tis week lo..
anyway the drama is really nice~!!
haha...

Anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LOON NGAI FONG AND SU JIA ZHE~!!!

CAN'T WAIT TO GET MY HANDS ON KAT-TUN'S NEW ALBUM~!!LOLX>>>

2008-06-10T01:34:00.000-07:00

i dunno wad to do...
i dunno wad to do...
i dunno wad to do...

haiz....

why there's so many problems de?!
why cant things be simpler?

ARGH~!!!

...

anyway recently i watch a movie called koizora / sky of love.
its really nice but sad...
at first i told myself i won't watch tis kinda of sad sad romance movie...
but well..
i watch it and feel really upset...

here's a very brief idea of the story:
a guy called Hiro and a girl called Mika fall in love.
one day Hiro broke up with Mika without any really valid reason.
Mika was of course very upset about it.
She met another guy called Yu.
Unable to forget Hiro, she reject Yu at first..
somehow she and Yu become a couple..
After 2 years (if i m not wrong), Mika found out that Hiro actually had cancer .
He was dying ( left with only 3 months ).
Hiro broke up with her becox he did not want Mika to be upset...

tis movie is somehow making me feel very angry.
At around the end of the movie, Hiro pass Mika a camera and asked her to print the photos out.
On her way back to the hospital, she received a call from Hiro's sis.
Hiro's pulse rate is DROPPING.

While rushing back to the Hospital, Mika called Hiro (video call)
When Hiro heard Mika's voice, he opened his eyes slowly.
At this point of time, i thought a miracle was gona happend!!
i was so elated ( for no reason?!)

then he close his eyes again and that dunno-wad-machine-in-hospital went TIIIIII~!

i was about to smash the TV.
damn director!
why give tis kinda of hope?!

HOPE>
it suddenly make me remember that i had to solve the missing team members problem......

WAD SHOULD I DO???????
dunno
dunno
dunno
dunno

i wish i could just grab my mum's credit card and buy a plane ticket and fly to god-know-where-i-am.
haha
dumb.dumb.dumb.

hmmm....
so people ....
the places of No.2 and No.3 in my team have officially open up!!!
anyone interested pls leave me a message!!!

...

WHY DO I HAVE THIS KINDA PROBLEM?!WHY?!WHY?!
now i feel like punchin them.
when they see me, they better wear a mask!

Bird-day

2008-05-28T04:02:00.000-07:00

Woots~
i m officially 15~!!!
haha...
loony say i m LAO LAO LAO TAI PO..
MEANIE~!!

anyway yesterday i go out with Qy XingLiang and Debbie...
here are some pics we take on our way home :)

tis is Qy helping Deb tie her hair!
Go StrawBerry Short Cake girl~!!LOLx>>

Tada~!! Let's play Guess Who? !!
This is DEBBIE!!! ( with her plaits )

Debbie and her hair stylist~!!

This is the birthday present i received from QIU YAN , XINGLIANG , CHAIRMAN (CHAIRWOMAN?) DEBBIE , IMMATURE XIAO MEI MEI (aka LOON) and SUPER SCARY DM AH TAN!!!!

This one also from them~!!! Kawaii~!!!

Sorry~
i just cant resist taking them out to play...
so hard working rite?
i mean the Rabbit~
hey i m thinkin a name for tis rabbit...
anyone got any ideas?

Changing parade~!!
Their clothes are seriously hard 2 change...
or maybe i m too rough...
so Kawaii rite?!

THANKS LOTS SOTONGS~!!!
MAY WE STAY UNITED FOREVER~!!

Hope i can faster license!

KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT RULES~!!LOLX>>

2008-05-24T09:22:00.000-07:00

i dun wan to be sec3
i wan to be pri 6 ...
ya-ya
i m suffering from i-dun-wan-grow-up illness..

got lots of ISPL
loon and lim cannot go training...
left only me and tan...

shld i give it up?
or i shld carry on and restart again...?
either way will be hard...

can someone tell me wad to do?

why parents like tat de?
trainings only ma
not go out play play
why cannot go?!
my results very good meh?
oso very bad wad?!
besides i m not those clever clever no nid study tat kind..
screw them!
screw the world~!!
i dun care le!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...

sorry...
i dun mean to insult anyone parents
i m just too...screw-up..
anyway i feel better after...
listenin to kat-tun new song..
its really funny...XD
Kame's hair is so...
haha...
he seriously look like girl!!!
lolx...

i feeel so lonely now..
everyone is asleep..
sometimes i wonder wad will happen if i die?
*proff* and i m gone from the world...
will anyone be sad?

but of course i wont go and die..
if i die le, i cant see KAT-TUN anymore...
and of course FAHRENHEIT..

i wish i can be someone
someone...
someone who can be notice..
someone who will be love by everyone
someone who will be taken care of

i feel so unwanted now...

i know i m already very fortunate but..
i just cant help complainin and being emo..

one day, i will be somebody.
i definitely will be the most shiniest star
definitely.

KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT RULES!!!

library incident

2008-05-17T18:02:00.000-07:00

yesterday was really funny...
loon, QY and me go library do work together...
we talk talk
when our project is done, we went to the Korean Restaurant
( i think is it is a restaurant)
anyway the food dere is not really nice...

now the fun thingy is here~!!
we went to the CD shop..
when we reached there , guess wad?
we saw CHA DA..
hahaha..
his clothes are very tu lo..
we are practically laughing non-stop...
ok i m laughing non-stop...
den i took a picture of him standin in a very niang way!
HAHA
den i keep on lookin at him..
laughin here and there

den finally i was caught
he saw me lookin at him and kinda walk further away...
haha...

after tat, loon and QY was saying tat i was not laughin at the movie
(dere's a movie showing outside the CD shop)
the Ah Long Pte Ltd...
haha...

den i told them my weird dream
(its too weird so i dun wan to mention)
den they anyhow alot of stuff lo
in the end, QY and Loon brust out laughin lo..
so mean !!

den while waiting the bus , i help Loon to get names for her babies next time..
Ngai Yan (girl), Jun Fong(boy)
not bad rite?
haha..

there a scene in the movie (ah long pte ltd) where the sissy guy wanted to have sex with his mafia wife...
its really funny...
den i told Loony tat wad if its was naynuj and her....
LOLX
she was also pratically laughin lor...

haha...
hope i got tat weird dream again tonite..

DUN MISS ME!!KAT-TUN & FAHRENHEIT ROCKS!!!LOLX>>>

earthquake

2008-05-16T07:51:00.000-07:00

to me, today is a perfect day.
no training.
slackin in school~
only got maths lesson...
watch Speed Racer with my bro...

but in China, the Si Chuan areas...
haiz...

i seriously hate the people who build the schools in that area!
if they had use those poor quality materials to build those school...
those little kids would not die..

in today's Chinese newspaper reading lesson...
i was shocked by the front page...
its show a picture of 2 or 3 soldiers removing huge stones and they found...
about 6++ kids lying inside...
they were about my bro's age i guess...

they looked as if they were sleeping...
but the fact is that they wont woke up...
if those schools were built of earthquake-resistant materials like solid bedrock..
perhaps lesser kids will die..

if God really wanted to punish someone...
leave the kids alone...
take away the adults...

i just hope that more survivors can be found...
i dunno wad i can do to help...

examz over but e bad thingys are not over yet.

2008-05-13T04:55:00.000-07:00

ok ...
i m kinda sad now...
cox well..today get back..you-know-wads-tats.

dun wanna tok abt...

ok let tok abt something happy~!!
last week tue..
i went out alone!!
i spend lots lots lots of money~!!
haha
my mum's pocket sure got a super biggy hole.

i brought KAT-TUN's 1st ablum!!!
and lots of other story books..

dunno why recently i m kinda hook on spies books!
James Bond!!
CHERUB!!
and of course... ALEX RIDER!!!

haha...
they rocks!!
i wonder how it is to be them.
it must be super COOL~!!

haiz...
my birthday is getting nearer
which means..
i m 1 step nearer to dying...
haiz..

DUN MISS ME!!it is no longer NA3 since she not going..

sad!

2008-05-05T06:38:00.001-07:00

AHHHHH~~~!!!!

so sad....

no one want go out with me!!!
sad sad sad

i just want to buy something ma...
not even 1 single soul can accompany me go lors..
PS!!!!

so sad...
i m so lonely~
Lonely~~

can anyone pei me go out tomoro?

or maybe i shld go Mars or Pluto to find someone to accompany me~!!
haha~~

exam endinz

2008-05-05T05:28:00.000-07:00

woohoo~~
exam ending soon le!!
muhahaha!!!
but quite sad too..

so fast May le..

hahas..

Kat-tun new song is out!!!!
cant wait to get my hands on their new single!!!
muhahahas!!

besides, Blood Noir is coming out soon!!!
this month~!!

so sad..
i just found out twilight (movie) is coming out on decemenber 2008..

nevermind
at least got something to look forward~!

haha~!!!

DUN MISS ME!!NA3 RULES>>LOLX>>

2008-04-26T08:34:00.000-07:00

wow
exam is so near le...
sian..

dun worry i m not gona say why there such things call exam=)

anyway i think there's something wrong wif my brain!
i m seriously doin lots of dumb stuff.

before school start, JiaZhe aka JZ come and find me for some training stuff.
guess wad i do when he was walking towards me?
haha
i m telling ah tan, HF, Qy they all , JZ wun see me.
den i go use my Add maths textbook and cover my face.
thinkin he wun find me
hide-and-seek=)
in the end, he did find me.

during lessons, i read my notes using ah Loon's method.
put the paper super near my face.
i cant read a single word.
wonders why ah Loon keep doin tat?
haha

today guess wad i do?

ah Loon come to my house and we study togther.
yippy! i study lo. Brownie point for me!
den we went down for lunch.
while we were crossing the road, i wave to the bus driver.
wad a nice girl i m~!
the driver smile back to me!!
yippy!!
who says Singaporeans lack of civic mindness!!

after loony was like sharing wif me her waving-to-policemen experience.
den i decided if i see any policemen later i will wave to them
but their reaction will be...
"Hey did u escape from the mental hospital?"

hahaa..

then after tat we went on studying ...
at around the evening we watch Home Alone together.
afterall, we are Home Alone.
haha..

when Loony wanted to went home, she told me to get my traps ready!
Loony so good lo
constantly using her HOMs- Finding Humor.

haha...
had a really fun day!

DUN MISS ME!!LOVE NA3>>>

Moody~

2008-04-22T05:20:00.000-07:00

haiz....
today was really a bad mood day.
i flunk my Emaths test.
i m so dead....

my results was like shit..
wonder how i can survive in SA1?

hmmm...

i m goin brain dead soon~~

WTH

2008-04-21T02:08:00.000-07:00

why they like tat de?
lose den lose lo
say such mean stuff for wad...

its hurt my feelings..

i know all the trainer dun like me
no nid so frank ma...
so wad we sweep everything bak for?

now i wonder why we win.

i know they dun like me
but i did put in effort for the com

haiz...

sometimes i wish i never join saint john

i saw u cry
but its not for us

i m upset
sad that no1 care for me

did i did so badly?
m i really tat bad?
how come their trainers all got write lots of jia u stuff for them?
why we dun have?

yaya
i know ..
its simply u dun like me.

do anyone care about me?

FAC'08

2008-04-20T05:32:00.000-07:00

yesterday was the happiest day of my life.
i still cant really believe it man...
WE NA3 WON Champion, Best in CPR, Best in First Aid, Best in Home Nursing.

i m very very very depressed when we finished all the cases and prize presentation was starting..
when i looked at how our trainers looked like..(during the break of the prize presentation)
i m really really very vert upset.
i was like;
oh shit.. we are gona be dead meat, we are going to lose, oh shit shit...

when it was about to start, i was very very nervous
i was really very glad that Jia Zhe's Team (A2) won the 1st runner up!!!
and of course i m super happy that the NC (senior) team won champion.
Loony was like they broke our legend ..they broke our legend...

i started to get cramps on my legs
my mind was like: oh god....
"Best in home nursing, NA3, bukit batok corp"
i was really really shock...
on my way to get the prize, i was thinkin if i heard it correctly or they had make a mistake..
i m really SHOCK that on my hands i got 3 trophies
T-H-R-E-E

when i march back to my team, i wanted so much to hug them ..
i can sensing ah lim crying, ah loon vibrating...
when they announced that we got champion, i can feel my body vibrating..
i was numb.

its just all so amazing, fasinating,unrealistic...
earlier ah lim n i broke down, worrying ...
and loon n ah tan come up wif a solution if we all really lose.

they say when they announced that we are 2nd runner up,
i kekiri pusing (direction of the gate) them and say : "Dari Kiri cepat cepat cepat cepat jailan"
haha...
while me and lim deciding ways to commit suicide.
den loon keep on saying the disadvantages of our methods...

finally the FAC ended.

actaully we are not over confident at all, u guys should c how we look like after trainings.
in fact i think we just look over confident.

before FAC , i m really very sarced that i
-am not able to lead my team
-suddenly forget my commands
-do something super embrassing
i may look calm but i m screamin inside ...
but i know if i did tat, loony lim tan will go even crazier. and dun wan go com le
tat wads they told me if their leader go crazy

oh i suddenly rmb sth.
when we had completed foot drill, i went to report to the sir.
guess wad he told me?!
you should go and became a foot drill instructor.
when i heard that, i was thinkin wad if my trainers heard that.
they will definitely throw their shoes at me.

haha...

btw i did share info with other teams okay?
dun believe ask their leaders la.
i type out how to call the ambulance notes and send to the NC team leaders.
i did tell them how 2 get more knowledge.
just becox u never c, u keep on sayin i never help them.

besides that, without our help, (according to wad u say) they seem prefectly alright- champion.
(hey dp i m not saying u or mad at u..so tok 2 me during class=])

wadever now FAC end le:)
SA1 coming.JIA YOUs BA!

Thanks lots to all the trainers who spent time to train us.
Thanks to Jia Zhe who sort of console me when i m mad during training.
Thanks to Qiu Yan who give support.

Lastly
THANKS TO MY DEAREST NO.2 NO.3 NO.4!!
JIA YOUS FOR NFAC!!!
hey loon, how yr cheek?sorry..
hey lim, next time dun cry le
hey tan, sorry for using some extreme methods to stress u..dun mean it.

DUN MISS ME!!NA3RULES!!LOLX>>

SLACKING~!

2008-04-16T02:49:00.000-07:00

muhaha...
i FAIL my Add Maths test!!
hai...

but i never study that test ma...
i hope i pass the Physics test.
i study super hard for that wor
ok la
actually is last mintue study 1...
haha..

exams are SO near.
tsk tsk tsk
but i dun feel like studyin:)
haha..

anyway recently i keep on talking crap..
dunno wad's wrong wif me..
haha..
i tink loon is goin to be crazy soon.
becox of my non-stop crapping..
lolx...

sometimes i wish that i can just go com alone lo..
being in a team is somehow a little troublesome lo..
sometimes i dun get wad's my team mates thinkin about ..
its getting on my nerves ..
argh..
some kinda of lame excuse..
LAME.
i dun care if u read tis .
dun care even if u cry in front of me.
dun care if u tell senior tat i bully u ( which i did not )

u cry we all console u
den kana say by senior
"You all are consoling her or making it worse?"
"Which of you bully her? Tell me."

fine fine fine
i did nothing but wait for her outside her classroom
den she come out and started crying.
den we all console her.
tell me.
wad did i do wrong?

in wad way i m wrong?
hell i m just telling her dun care tat cher.
tats all.

u are so nice sometimes
but u are so mean sometimes.
hey so wad yr post bigger den me?
so wad?
do i look like i care?

wadever.
if there's a medicine tat will wash my memories out of my head, i would like to eat it.

WA>>>>
i just got a shock of my life....
sad sad sad
haiz.....
die die die die die...

HOPE WE ALL CAN SURVIVE!!!~~

2008-04-11T06:41:00.000-07:00

muhaha..
once again
i gotten scolding again !!!
wow
how fun tat was?

haiz...
life just soo damn hard.

hey HRP..
do u miss the time we had wif ang gu kue and xiao hei nian?
and of course the spring roll boy.

i miss them ...
life was so much better during tat time.

the life without getting scolded by them
no nid to consider about how to work wif the members
no nid to care about how they think
no nid to be sad every time he never include me
no nid to be guilty
no nid to think too much

god..
if yesterday i did not saw him, i would not have miss them
i remember i used to kick his leg under the table
passing sweets to everyone around our table
getting chocolate from him on teachers day
oh ya
there's a time when a guy make fun of loony's name
we tear his science workbook..
evil me:)
haha...

haiz..
today was seriously a total disaster...
if the previous ones are continuous convectional rain..
well today was flooding with thunder and lighting

wadever happen today make me miss 2005 more
hey HRP
it is obvious that i like him during tat year?

meanie loon

2008-04-10T04:05:00.000-07:00

ok i tink i m the biggest joker ever...
XD
lolz...
Yesterday (Wed) i called 1 of my officiers about training stuff.
and Meanie Loon ( yippy i came up wif a new nickname for her) is beside me
ok i confess i m quite nervous so i speak in a funny way...
OMG..i just cant believe wad i said to her.

ok the conversation goes like tis:
O: Wad did the sec 1s did the previous training?
XY: todal.. ( i just got tongue tied. den Meanie Loon laugh out loud...)
blah blah blah...
she was askin me about the training programme tomoro
XY:...4pm to 7pm is ACC. den from 2:15pm to .... is for the NDP rehearsal (once i say tat out Meanie Loon laugh out loud again. i took 1 sec 2 realise wad i had just said)no no no i mean ACC.

and let me tell you wad Meanie Loon was doin while i m calling!
she was making those weird sounds using the straw (we drank bubble tea before tat)!!
so bad lo!!

Do you know why Piggyfong is called Meanie Loon?
today we decided to eat lunch at the hawker centre somewhere near our homes.
we're buying drinks when...
Meanie Loon saw him
ya him- egg roll.

she was saying: "hey xinying! it's *TOOT*"
i was shock SHOCK.
before i could react, guess wad Meanie Loon did?
she GO AND CALL HIM!!!
he turned ...
i m not sure if he recognise me...
but its was...
i dunno wad to say...

i wanted to take a super big book and covered my face ...
anyway he's really TALL.
did he recognise me?-Maybe?
wad did he tink of me?- weirdos?
how did he feel?- another stranger standing beside his ex primary school mate?
hmmm
i wanted the answer but i dun tink i will ever get it.

i remember the times.
did he forget about it?

tat was the happiest year.
hey xiao bai nian do you agree wif me?
the sandwich compeition.
the concert.
the poems.
the naughtiest things we did together.
haha...
it was dumb.
BUT IT IS DEFINITELY THE HAPPIEST TIME WE ARE SHARE:)

emo emo emo

2008-04-08T06:23:00.000-07:00

my life is really weird.
yesterday really fun!
we had a nano chem at SWSS ..
we had a chance to make mirror !!
its really cool!!
to see a normal piece of glass change into a piece of mirror!!!!!
its really damn cool :)

but today...
its total disaster!!!
besides e usual scolding...
there something tat really made my goosebumps all go up...
"NA team , must get championship or else.. you will get it from me"
Unqoute...

commanders...
tis word.. really nid lots of responsibility..
it can be say out easily..but..haiz

no one really care about my team.
so if we really won something den its our effort.
u guys only say must get champion...
but do u know something?!
my team had e most self train session.
ya i know wad u would say:
cox we believe you guys will train yourself.
ok fine..
but den everyone have their team manger say jia you to them
but my team?
ya we have but only when addressin everyone..
my team got the scolding but no jia u...
if only u give me support
SUPPORT
S-U-P-P-O-R-T

i noe u dun like me but wad about my team?
got you guys de darling wor...
how come i always get the scolding?
ya i m e COMMANDER>
COMMANDER.
damn i hate it.
how come u guys dun told yr darling off?
no matter how i tried to pull up her First Aid stuff...
its really hard
i feel tat somehow she is lagg behind
i tried to pull her...
its a tiring job.
no one wanted to help me...

last time i was used to be scold as laggin behind
i was hurt
but she did not get e same treatment
why?
because i m no one's darling and she's someone darling

ok ok
i m e lousy commander.
ya ya
she 's e best .
i m e lousy.
i m just an assistant.

oh great
i spend so much time sayin out wad i wanted to say
or peharps wad i dun dare to say...

ahhhhh
i haven do the training sheet thingy..
damn damn damn

EMO MEAGAIN!

2008-04-04T06:01:00.000-07:00

i m in a piss-off-at-everything mode just now.
i m sorry for scolding whoever just now...

turn my emo-ness into anger always made my life easier but..
will made life diffcult for those who near me.

come on
i m not perfect so tats me.

wadever

anyway today i m here to blog about Noir.
the way she say certain things are really weird..
i dun understand lo
always get scolded by her 1 lo.
haiz...
xi guan jiu hao le

but its made me really not happy lo
grrr....

today i felt really sad
i feel like no one helpin me to jia u lo
hey i m not super man kay?
i nid support...
but no one really gave it to me rite?

Noir want me to improve for...
i dun wanna say tat word
i m really dumb ma
i m really not good in that
i know we dun hav time
but dun treat me like tat kay?

do u noe how much it hurts to see other C. got support from Noir ?
must jia u okay?

wan me to achieve it but yet still ...
i m human being
i can fall and may not be able to stand up

Noir , you want us to say wad we want to say
but the truth is something u definitely dun wan to listen to
...

being myself is hard
need to show everyone;
i m a good friend.
you are my best bud
ya i will tell u all of my secerts
blah blah...

deep down i know i dun believe them
or maybe i actually believe in them ...
i also noe that no matter how much you guys say we are best pal
you also dun believe me.
come on i know it
the only person u can really trust is yourself.
its kinda emo but its also kinda true rite??

let's just keep continue wad we all are.
peharps we all are really best pal
or maybe we are not...

EMO ME~!

2008-04-03T05:22:00.000-07:00

ok-ok
but i m NOT OK AT ALL!
argh....
damn...
i seem to be having tachycardia all the time and apnea sometimes...
AHHHHHH

*take a deep deep breath*

anyway today i PASS MY CHEM TEST!!
P-A-S-S!!!
hurray for me!!
haha..
ya-ya i noe its just pass but...
I M SO HAPPY !!
for the second test i study like mad can!
so tis prove tat last minute studying does help ok?!
haha..jokin jokin..

damn..
my dad just pass by and scolded me..
wadever..
scold scold scold..
don't he know that studying is not easy?!
i saw before his grades lo..
well..*evil smile*
got alot of fail and red markings here and there..
muhaha..

wadever..dun care about him
always spoil my mood...

haizz..
i always thought i m kinda straight-forward and somehow courageous?
but actually i m not..
there are some things that just cant be said..

u know wad? its really funny..
they always want to know if we are happy anot on our post ..
but wad will really happen if i do really tell them how i feel?
i can already expect wad they will say:
since u already got tis post den u shld do it right ....
blah blah
nothing will change rite?
e post will still be mine
i will still end up doin e job
nothing change..except..
they will put me into their "black list"

they say got problems sit down and talk
of course we have think of tis before..
does it helps?
nope.

tat person( the unlucky target ) will cry and have ...
well, different people will have different reactions
1. he/she will rebut back ( like he/she is not in wrong, perhaps actually he/she is not wrong but their actions just cant be accept by the majority)
2.say sorry lo and promise to change (but do they really change?)

frankly speaking, i m been in this kinda of person and mine is e worst ..
did u c one gang of people sort of surroundin 1 gal?
well tats me.
i m the 1st in e sotong den get tis 'reflection meeting'.
haha..start e ball rolling..
guess wad is my reaction?
haha..

i never cry wor!
brownie point for me!:)
of course i rebut back lars ...

Conclusion: they might not really change deep down...in fact they might be waiting for revenge!:)

haha..
evil me!
dun worry...i m not getting any revenge or wadever stuff..

I LOVE THEM.

2008-03-25T05:25:00.000-07:00

seriously..
saying commands is not easy.
debate seems like an easier thing to do..

ok let me tell u wad i had done in e past few days:
-disgrace myself infront my class during debate
-getting 'shoot' indirectly by my relatives
(i wanted to tell them ; hey i know wad u mean so can u stop it?!)
-sleeping non-stop
-reading manga
- not doin homework and not concenrating during class
-funk my tests...

haiz...
my life is so just so normal....
its really normal.
so normal tat i cant stand it.
damn...

ok fine i m just suffering from my usual illness :
i-cant-get-over-the-fact-i-m-normal sickness

haiz..
if only i got death note (i mean the REAL notebook)..
if only i have superpowers like people in X-family
if only i met a vampire...or become 1
blah blah..
the list just keep going on...

well, i know its way impossible that these would happen to me..
in fact , the chances are -10000000000000000000000000000000.....
(the zeros just keep going on)

ok-ok
wakey-wakey
life just keep goin on....

2008-03-06T06:41:00.000-08:00

hmmm...
common test over and i got bak results le..
its sux.
i never get so many 'underline' before.

ok i m in a sad-ggrumpy-emo mode.
cant blame me kay?!
i gotta let off some of the stuff in my head or i will burst...

things i m not happy about it:

- i still dun get over the fact that L died.

-i fail my physics by 0.9 mark
(its not even marks can)

-i dunno hu is my true friend
(is there even such thing in the world?)

-i m so damn sick of seeing people back stabbing people ...
(not really back stabbing..perhaps tokin bad abt them..i did done it but i m not a saint.)

-ok now i dun even noe who are / is my friend(s)?
(does them even exist?)

-i want 2 have true frend but...haizzz

Things i need to do:
-think on how to get bak at my sickening cousins and their mum
-improve my results
-train my team into gd condition...
-think on how improve my relationship between my friends...

haizzzz
ok i m tired...

JIA YOU BA!!!! i try too ba....

DUN MISS ME!!KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT&L ROCKS!!LOLX>>>

2008-02-27T07:32:00.000-08:00

Wahaha...

i just finish the draft 1 of my essay!!
and i ask Piggy Fong for some ideas for names of characther...
and guess wad she say?!

lili..
xiao ming..
xiao hua...

lolx...

den after that there tis part of the essay that says :

Actual essay:
” You should have seen this coming! You have only yourself to blame!” The guard snapped. “I’ve learnt my lesson! I will change! I promise!’ Despair was creeping into my voice. “Hello? May I speak to Annie’s father? Yes…” As he rattled off like a machine-gun, my heart sank. ..

Piggy Fong's idea:

wei! where is ah kao's lim bei?

lolx...
loony de sense of humour super good de!!
diao diao diao...

DUN MISS ME!! KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT&L RULES!!LOLX>>

L's death.

2008-02-23T06:32:00.000-08:00

ok i had watched L change the world.
its is nice.
a little disgusting..
sad..
funny...
exciting...
touching...

ok i m really sad that L died.
and L's real name is Lawliet.
i know he's not real but...
i just feel sad.

L is really noble.
clever.
ok clever seem too low class for him.
hm.. he a SUPER genius !!

tis movie made the audience see the other side of him.
he is actually very shy when girls are near him..haha..
he is actually quite good in standing board jump.
he is so funny when he tried to straighten himself..

dunno y i m so sad...
i feel like a real person died.
perhaps L do really exist.

i just wanted to write tis.
...

Lawliet had passed away. i will mourn for his death.

X

...

its kinda of dumb isn't it?
to type such stuff.
sad over someone who died in a movie.
someone hu dun even noe me.
letting me cry out will make me feel better ba..
some part of me is saying :
How come such a good person will die? Why cant a miracle happened and he continue to live on?
Why? Please let him live.

its feel really dumb but..
i really wanted him to live on.
dun die at such an early age.
he die trying to save more people from dying.

tis make me feel how much it is important to be alive.

oh god...
damn wads happening to me?!
i m dumb.

damn
why m i crying over a death of 1 character in the movie?!

i really hope that e end of the movie..
he wun die.
but.. he die.

L change the world.

2008-02-20T05:41:00.000-08:00

yippy!!

got tis laptop (finally no nid to share wif my bro le) and my ipod!!

besides...

L movie is out TOMORO!!

i been waiting for 1 whole year!!

my life's prefect.

wif the stuff i wan and of course...

being together with my sotongs.

anyway common test overle.

i bet 100% i will fail my phyics..

and never finish my history essay..

haizz..

well its just a test anyway.

i had to continue to live on rite?

being sad because of a test...

tats so not worth it.

today go chem lab ..

quite funny but must be super duper careful.

lolx...

lookin forward to L change the world movie!!!

anyone wana watch it?

DUN MISS ME!!!KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT&L ROCKS!!LOLX>>

2008-02-19T03:00:00.000-08:00

tokin to ah loon now...
lolx...

haha..
my ipod can use le!!!
yippy!!!
YAY!!

and i can access the elearning lesson le!!!
BUT...
the test is OVER le!!!

GRRR!!!
nevermind.....
i can access that is not bad le.
can access is better than cannot access.

lolx..
i confirm fail tis test...
nevermind..
be happy is the most important thingy!!

DUN MISS ME!!KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT RULES!!!LOLX>>

sad sad sad

2008-02-18T03:30:00.000-08:00

haiz....
damn!!! i cant open tat stupid Elearning thingy!!!
argh!!!!

can someone help me?
i m goin crazy soon!!!!!!

why always like tat de?!
WHY?!!!

its always like tat!!!
i m always so suai de!!!!

haiizzzz....
i feel like takin tis com n throw it onto e floor!!!
argh!!!!

:(
:(
i m so sad rite now...
always alone..
no one help me de...

2008-02-15T07:23:00.000-08:00

hmm..
*yawn*
i m so tired but i haven finish my proposal..
anyway there's is song called: True Friend by Miley Cyrus
obviously is about friendship..

haiz..
i feel kinda of mixed up.

To: i tink you noe its for you
ok .. erm.. i really take you as my best friend. sometimes i may have sort of did not treat you well... but i dunno.. i like you quite alot.- ahem in terms of friends.. i seriously dunno wad i m doin now.. i just wan to tell you; you're really important to me.
you're there when i need you. talk to me when i m lonely. help me come up with solutions to my problems... when people say anti-stuff about you, i might say something anti too but tats becuase i really dun like tat part of you. but i bet you did somthing similar too.
so lets just forget all those bad stuff and start a new okay?

...

sleeppyy...
go sleep le..
anyway AAC tis year seem easier cox u-noe-hu is not in-charge!
lolx...

Support L 's movie!!!

DUN MISS ME!!KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT ROCKS!!LOLX>>

i-dunno

2008-02-13T23:25:00.000-08:00

did you really did that?
they say you did that..
but at first i did really believe you're inncocent but..
somehow ...

i dunno wad i shld do le.
i m so happy that you have good result..
i m really happy about it..
but after wad they told me..
i feel betrayed.

did you really did that?
i kept thinking about it...
but i have no answer to that question

i feel guitly for not having faith in you..
But i m not completely believe in what they said..
whenever they say it, some part of me say: no it not true. she wont do such things.

wad should i do?
believe you?
believe them?
...

ok i have an answer le.
i believe you did not do it.
Ya, you wun do it.
...

m i giving you guys too much stress?
but we're really...
remember the plegde we take?

i m tired of pushing..
sometimes i feel that being alone is easier..
i m not much of a team player.
now i know how tough is it to be a team player

so wad shld i do?
can we survive together?

hm..
well we all dun have much of a choice rite?
so too bad ..
i m going to put more n more n more pressure on u guys..
i dun care if you can take it anot.
i just wan good results!

Fighting!! Invincible Tasaii!!

DUN MISS ME!!Kat-tun&Fahrenheit rules!!!! LOLX>>>

i-m-lucky-afterall

2008-02-03T04:31:00.000-08:00

phew!!!
the showcase thingy is postpone to next next week!!
haha...

anyway i saw something really make me feel...
i noe u hate her but do u have to do to this kind of stuff to her?
its really kinda off limits...

ok.. wad i say here may really affect my position in the family..
but i still wana say...
dun worry i wun expose tat to others...
i m not tat bad...

but its really kind of worried me that you might done tat to me before..
i noe she's really quite mean..
but..doin tat..
is scary..

if someone done tat to me, i will feel very upset..
so if u dun wan tat to happen to you, you should do tat to others...
maybe i m not in this position to say all these stuff but...
i just wana say it.

i m really shock to see tis kinda of stuff...
really...

maybe to you guys is a joke but ...
its kinda of hurts me to see tis..
not that i like her or wad..
but...
i dunno

why is the world so dark and scary?

i m just 14-going-to-be-15 and i have to deal with so much stuff...

how many people really go to heaven?
now..somehow i tink i m not tat bad.
maybe i get a chance to go to heaven afterall.
i may not be an angel
but i m not really a devil
am i??

2008-01-30T00:24:00.000-08:00

hmm...
the show case thingy is reaching le...
coming nearer n nearer...
wad should i do ?
haiz...

anyway..
i bought the love story in angel street no.23 book 4!!!
its so nice lo!!!
Jin Yue Ye is sooo shuai lo!!
lolx..
fa hua chi....

i m gona buy book 5 soon!!!
Yippy!!
lolx..

oh ya...
mum's birthday coming le...
wad should i get for her?
does anyone have any good idea?

the love story in angel street no.23 is soooo nice!!
just cant stop reading it!!
argh!..

by the way i m so shocked that i got the highest in the First aid quiz my senior set...
i thought that i will at somewhere top 3 or 5...
(Jia Zhe n me got the same marks)
people always say: "aiya..must be JiaZhe 1 lo.." "wow ..Jia Zhe so pro..."
"Jia Zhe 's this this this very good lo..." blah..blah...

hellos
i m a human being..
do u know wad the meaning of jealousy?

keep saying Jia Zhe this Jia Zhe that good...
i m going to scold that person!>:(
if i keep on comparing you with another people, you also dun like 1 rite?
so dun do that to me!!

grrr....

Jia Zhe, someday i will be better than you!!
i DEFINELY will!!!

ok ..actually not really his fault or wad..
is the others...

Jia Zhe actually not bad de...
he say (after the test n knowing our result) : "hey next quiz let's get full marks together!"
so..he is not a bad person.

tats all..

JIA YOU!!!
WE CAN DO IT DE!!

DUN MISS ME!!KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT RULES!!!LOLX>>

imsad

2008-01-26T23:14:00.000-08:00

recently ...
i dunno y i get upset easily?
i feel very low most of time..
thinking of lots of stuffs..

lucky..
i have some books to distract me from my emo-ness
...

anyway i read this book called Eclipse.
its really nice!!
its kinda of funny during the sad part...
how i wish i m Belle....(the main character of the story)
she always have someone to protect and be there when she's sad.
more importantly.. SHE HAVE A VAMPIRE BOYFIREND!!
tats so cool lo...

haiz...

i feel so sad now...
damn...
its becox of another book i read..
its called the love story of Angel Street No.23
i found out that my favourite character in the story is going to die at the later part of the story...

OMG!!
i m started to like romance story...
eeeeewwwww

gosh...wad's happening 2 me?!

ok..i tink i know wad's happenin 2 me!
i'm stress out on my studies (trying to be better than my cousins)
and also FAC..
i dunno how to command!!!!
why is shouting commands so hard?!!
Algebra Equations seem so much easy..

oh ya...
i do not have an ambition.
How?!
teachers say students with no ambition cant really succeed..blah blah ....
but how can i decide my ambition in just 1 period?

dun care...
my GOAL is to defeat my cousins in studies!!
I WANT TO SHOW THEM TAT I M SO MUCH BETTER THAN THEM!!!

oh shit..
CNY coming..
this mean that.....
i have to visit them.

tats all...

JIA U FOR FAC!!
WACK THEIR ASS!!

imsad..cansomeonecheermeup?pls..doesangelsreallyexist?...imsad

busy busy busy

2008-01-25T06:20:00.000-08:00

Haiz..
lately dunno y so sad...

got lots of stuffs happen..
since it's a long story so forget it...

i had just done a maths quiz and ..
i took e same time as a guy(maybe a gal) and i get only 80% correct..
and he/she got FULL marks..
sad
sad
sad...

Haiz...

anyway school is nothing but homework n homework n homework...

Haiz.. Sec 3...

lao le lao le..
LOLX...

JIA U BA!!I CAN DO IT DE!!
opps must go read first aid manual..

anyway Kame's new drama out!!
1 pound gospel!!
its so funny !!
lighten my mood up!!
YAY!!

got power le!!
NORBUTA POWER!!

DUN MISS ME!!KAT-TUN & FAHRENHEIT RULES!!LOL>>

sad..

2008-01-09T02:47:00.000-08:00

wad do u feel when u noe someone dun like you?
angry?
sad?
happy?

i feel..erm...
LOST.

i dun really feel sad because i know someone will hate me after wad i say tat day..
but...
how can u not feel sad when somebody dun like u?

i tink i m totally in trouble..

offend my seniors..
being hate by juniors..
wow
wad being left is being hate by e rest of the sontongs le..

perhaps they already hate me le..

haha...
my sjab life is a total disaster..

maybe i should go apply the world record..
most no. of people hating me.

nice 1..

wad make me wanting to live on tis world is only my family..
fahrenheit n Kat-tun...

maybe if i quit things will be better?

sad sad sad...

Big girls dun cry...

2008-01-05T23:52:00.000-08:00

i m so sick of this..
acting so happy..
so high..
being nice ...

i m tired..
i feel so sad..
so grey..
so low...

i m fat
i m ugly
i m bad
i m disgusting
...
is there anything good about me?

i dun tink there is any...

perharp me living tis world is wasting space and resources...

does my frends really take me as their friend?
does my family really care about me?
does anyone really care for me?
will someone cry if i died?
tears of joy?

lol...

does anyone read wad i type?

lol...

Timetable

2007-12-30T05:27:00.000-08:00

haiz..
the timetable out le..

sad sad sad...
my teachers like quite fierce 1 lo..
den the time table got lots of stuff..
sad sad sad...

i m not really sad.
just disappointed ba..

nevermind!!
i will jia u de!!!
TO MAKE MT SEC 3 LIFE WONDERFUL N FUN!!!

Have Fun is the most important thing!!!

so JIA U!!!

anyway Advance Course is officially OVER!!
O-V-E-R!!!!

i can do it de!!
Because i M TASAII!!!

DUN MISS ME!!!KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT ROCKS!!LOLX>>

2007-12-29T04:49:00.000-08:00

wow...
tomoro is POP le!!

time pass by so fast..

anyway yesterday night i got a weird dream.
i dream that i became chair person of my class..
in the dream, i volunteer myself to get that post.
i VOLUNTEER!!
not people choose 1 ...
so weird..
something wrong...

dun tink of such stuff le..

yay!!
i got more things to look forward for next year!!
besides Fahrenheit's new album ,
there is this movie called Kurosagi!!
its coming out next year 18th March!!!
i will definite find time to watch!!!
MUST WATCH!!

DUN MISS ME!!KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT ROCKS!!LOLX>>

2007-12-28T12:13:00.000-08:00

aww..
school holiday gona over le..
sad sad sad..
tsk tsk tsk

anyway Christmas over le..
annual BBQ over le..

oh ya...
the BBQ is sort of fun..
i love barbecuing chicken wings!!
lolx....

haiz....
from the BBQ i know more about myself...
i feel that i had lots of cunning ideas in my head..
tsk tsk..so bad..

but i m really happy that QiuYan say i change alot
maybe i just want to look good in front of people only..
hmm...

i m rotten inside out le..
if i died, will i go to heaven?
i dun tink so..
but i dun wana die!!

becox if i died, i most likely wun saw KAT-TUN & Fahrenheit again!!
so i must try to live.

my reason of staying alive is kinda of weird..XD

anyway the BBQ make me know more about other people too.
in terms of negative and postives sides.
some people does not turn out to be that good.
some poeple aren't that bad either.

hmmm... i m not fit to say other peple..
lolx..

looking forward to...
hmm...new year?
not really..
oh ya ..
I M LOOKIN FORWARD TO FAHRENHEIT'S ALBUM!!!
OUT ON 4TH JAN 2008~!!

JIA U BA!!!

DUN MISS ME!!i believe that someday someone will tell me they will miss me de!!!

2007-12-24T05:19:00.000-08:00

today go out with my team members!!
buy lots of stuffs and spent lots of money..
actually i saw this dougnut making set..
its a toy but at first i really wanted to buy it!!

haiz...
in the end , i never buy it.
sad sad sad.
den i go HMV trying to find an album called; Shuji to AKira
but dun have sell le!!!
last time i see den never buy
now i wan buy le den dun hav!!

argh..
so i learnt something.
when you really want to buy something just buy it if you really like it alot.

haiz..
if anyone have this album, can sell it to me?
or if anyone saw this album at some shop, can inform me?
PLEASE!!!!!!!

sad sad sad..
anyway today i go out...
i feel someone dun like me la..
cause its like..
fine.. i dun really wanna say about it.

DUN MISS ME!!KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT RULES!!LOLX>>

sometimes he sux

2007-12-23T21:52:00.000-08:00

hmm...
Chirstmas coming ...

i m watching a drama called Kurosagi.
its quite nice and exciting
the main actor is yamapi!!
he so clever and funny in this drama..
its about swindlers..

haiz..
this chirstmas i tink i wun be recieving any presents lo..
sad..

anyway today go shopping with my family..
i brought kat-tun's album, a storybook and a comic book...
i seriously feel that my dad always treat my bro better lo
i say something den he will confirm say something negative bak...
but when my bro say something , he will smile smile happy happy 1 lo
but me lei?!
scold scold scold scold...
not happy tis not happy tat..
he still dare to say he treat us both equally..
he say until like he is very right..
bull shit !!!!!
ya la..
i girl ma..
my bro boy ma..
zhong nan qing lui

argh.. dun care about him le..

i so sian ..
i wanna continue watching Kurosagi 1 but..
my dad is somewher near me..
if he saw me watching videos using com, i confirm kana a slashing from his super duper acidic tongue...
i dun wan my ears to suffer lo..

sad sad sad
no presents..not even letters..
i wana giv present de but dunno wad to giv sia..

today go HMV , i actually decided to buy Shuji to Akira (Norbuta wo Produce's OST)
but its GONE!!!!
sad sad sad

who brought it?!
i wan it!!!!
sad sad sad..

damn damn damn
when is he going to leave me alone?!
argh!!!

sian sian sian..
hope i dun have a boring Chirstmas!!

DUN MISS ME!!KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT RULE!!LOLX>>

over excited...

2007-12-22T23:30:00.000-08:00

wow .. this is my 30th post le!!
haha..
at first i thought at the most i will most likely have 10 posts den the blog is dead...

ok today i m so happy and i dunno y..
when i woke up today , i feel very happy.
i dunno y but i m VERY VERY happy.
and also very very high..

today got someone sort of praise me ba..
maybe to her, its just a comment but..
to me, its a compliment

but today i feel like i m Akira (a characther from Norbuta wo Produce)
annoying?
haha..
too high liao...

oh ya..
i m quite nervous cause tomoro i m going to call the BBQ whole sale center...
i m quite dumb 1 rite?
nervous about such things..
hahaha...

anyway i m so EXCITED about the annual BBQ!!!
because we are going to have BBQ on a tree house!!!
COOL RITE?
ok la.. maybe i m just too high le..

but its just so COOL..

lookin forward to alot of things...

DUN MISS ME!!KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT ROCKS!!LOLX!!>>>

2007-12-21T23:09:00.000-08:00

Recently ..dunno y keep playing audition..

NeiNei and i have this funny conversation...

I : My bro wan use com liao

NeiNei: he wan play ?

I: he wan playing other game, not audi

NeiNei: wad kind of gameS?

I: those kill here kill there games lo

NeiNei: if he dun play this kinds of games, later became like

*cannot-say-his name-but-he-is-a-sissy*den you noe..

I: Really ar?!

NeiNei: JIEEEE~~~~~!!!!
I: eeewwww

-end-

i dunno wad i m doin sia..
watch videos also very sian..

anyway looking forward to go out with my TEAM!!

yippy!!

Chirstmas coming le!!

YAY!!!

OH..

today i go watch Alvin and the Chipnucks!!

they very cute lo!!!

kawaii~~!!!

the story quite nice 1..

its funny but not really very funny tat kinda

since Chirstmas coming...

must write letter to Santa Claus de..

here my letter to Santa Claus:

Hi Santa Claus

hmm..i know i m not really a good girl..

but i know you very shuai and kind-hearted de so u will give me presents de hor?

Ya, i know u will!!

i wan Kat-tun and Fahrenheit albums and a new bag.

Izzit too much?

den i wan new bag can le..

ok?

Oh ya..can i have 1 more present?

Next Year FAC Champion Trophy.

u will give it to me rite?

anyway, can u give presents to Loony, ah Lame, aH Tan too?

they are good children so remenber to give them present ok?

Thank you!!!Muackx!!!

love,

XinYing.

hmm..do you tink he will giv me present?

hope so ba..

JIA U BA!!!

NeiNei , aH Lame, aH tan u all must buck up ok?

i noe u guys will!!!

good job!!

lookin forward to c u guys!!

WACK THEIR ASS!!KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT ROCKS!!!

BAK FROM HELL

2007-12-17T05:08:00.000-08:00

HURRAY!!
finally the camp is OVER!!
I M BAK!!!

i been waiting for this moment long time ago!!!!!!!
YIPPY!!!!
dun wana tok about it so better dun ask.

GoodBye NINJA!!

anyway..
one chapter of my life is going to over : Advance NCO Course
another chapter is coming up...
HOW WE GONA WACK THEIR ASS!!

hmm...
looking forward to go out with MY TEAM!!!
wonder if aH lame come up wif a plan le ma...

LET'S GO BA NA TEAM!!

DUN MISS ME!!KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT ROCKS!!LOLX>>

2007-12-13T06:22:00.000-08:00

sianz...
nothing to do..
watch anime, play audi, still so sian..

i dun wan to pack my bag sia.
i dun wan to go camp.
i hate camp.

JIA U BA!!
Looking for to going out with my beloved NA team!!
take neoprints..
once the camp is over den HURRAY!!

now listening to Kizuna
it remind me of friends..dunno y..haha
i feel tat i m very lucky to meet such nice friends tat cheer me up,help me,care for me..
NeiNei, aH Lame, aH Tan, Colissa, Cindy,QiuYan, Deb,Huifen etc...

hey i m not really that kinda of touchy-type of person but..
i just wanted to say THANK YOU to you guys!!
without you guys make me wonder how i can survive..

i m not really strong..i m weak..

hey how come i will say this kinda of stuff out?!
weird weird..
maybe just too nervous of camp and became siao siao..

i will jia u de!!
i will wack their ASS upside down and inside out!!
afterall, i m TASAII!!

JIA U!!!

WE CAN DO IT!!
KEEP THE FAITH!!

DUN MISS ME!!KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT ROCKS!!LOLX>>

Fahrenheit new album!!!!

2007-12-12T01:39:00.000-08:00

Yippy!! i just found out that Fahrenheit new album will be out in 30days!!!
Yay!!

den right they go Japan for their Japanese album!!
so cool lo!!
they all speak jap. not bad wors..(i dun understand jap but alot of people comment 1^^)
except Wu Zun la..need to look at the lyrics den sing..
the jap. version of 我有我的Young quite nice!!
y they dun have go to cartoon KAT-TUN lo..
they shld to cartoon KAT-TUN (KAT-TUN's show)

at least there something happy to look forward..
THIS WILL BE MY MOTIVATION FOR THE CAMP!!

FahrenHEIT FahRENHEIT FAHRENHEIT!!!

hahas..siao siao liaoz...
shit la.. 2 out of the NA team gone siao siao liao..
aH tan was keep on singing this :
i believe i can fly~
i believe i can touch the sky~
after that drop the ground~
then kana step by sum1 else~

LOlx...hahaha..
aH tan can go join choir liao lo...

DUN MISS ME!!KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT ROCKS!!!LOLx>>

2007-12-11T06:34:00.000-08:00

Yippy!! Advance gona over liao!!!
only left with e camp..
just e 1 last event..
we can do it!!

dunno y i this time not so scared about the camp lei!!
maybe is becox got deb same platoon ma..
n still got NeiNei n QiuYan!!
yay!!

hahas.. after camp go Escape PLAY!!!
SHOIK LO!!!

anyway today got com. training, most of e case is like a total diaster..
haiz..

BUT WE WILL N CONFIRM WILL BUCK UP!!!
our goal: WACK ** 's ASS!!!
bb corps ppl noe rite?XD

JIA U BA!!
WE CAN DO IT!!
WE'RE THE CHAMPION TEAM, A WELL-OILED MACHINE!!
KEEP THE FAITH!!
I WILL BUCK UP!!

DUN MISS ME!!LOVE KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT!!LOLX>>

2007-12-03T08:40:00.000-08:00

Here's e lyrics of my blog's song :

Keep the Faith (by KAT-TUN)

わがまま　言ってたけど
wagamama ittetakedo
Before, you were speaking selfishly, but
ここならYou know, Baby　居場所があったし
kokonara You Know, Baby ibasho ga attashi
here, Baby there was a place you could belong
信じること　口で言えても傷つくから
shinjiru koto kuchi de ietemo kizutsuku kara
It's possible to be hurt even when you can say what you believe, so
小さな声で優しさ探し歩き
chiisana koe de yasashisa sagashiaruki
quietly, you traveled in search of kindness
疲れた羽根でしゃがみこんでいる
tsukareta hane de shagamikondeiru
now, you're crouching here, resting your tired wings

No! No! No!　You show me the faith
No! No! No!　You show me the faith
No! No! No!　You show me the faith
必ず　I'll keep it for you
kanarazu I'll keep it for you
I'll definitely keep it for you
一人じゃ明日見失うから
hitorija ashita miushinau kara
Alone, we'll lose sight of tomorrow, so
派手に叫ぶのさ　Keep the faith
hade ni sakebu no sa Keep the faith
Let's shout it out as loud as we can Keep the faith

敵無し不可能もなし
tekinashi fukanou mo nashi
With no enemies, and no impossibilities
とばすぜ　燃え上がれ本能
tobasuze moeagare honnou
We'll fly on in high gear, and fuel on our instincts
つまらねえ　毎日抜け出すぜ
tsumaranee mainichi nukedasu ze
We'll slip out of these monotonous days
固い約束さ　Keep the faith
katai yakusoku sa Keep the faith
It's a solid promise -- Keep the faith

間違いだらけの街
machigai darake no machi
In a town full of mistakes,
何かが自分変えようとしても
nanika ga jibun kaeyou to shite mo
don't be afraid if something tries to change you,
おびえないで　心の中は変えられない
obienaide kokoro no naka wa kaerarenai
what's in your heart can't be altered
足りない言葉　ピエロは痛み抱え
tarinai kotoba piero wa itami kakae
The clown, hurt by the words that weren't said, carries his scars
作り笑い立ち尽くしてる
tsukuriwarai tachitsukushiteru
with his fake smile is firmly in place

No! No! No!　You show me the faith
No! No! No!　You show me the faith
No! No! No!　You show me the faith
必ず　I'll keep it for you
kanarazu I'll keep it for you
I'll definitely keep it for you
俺らが灯りをともすから
orera ga akari wo tomosu kara
we'll keep a light shining for you,
一人泣かないで　Keep the faith
hitori nakanaide Keep the faith
so don't cry alone, Keep the faith

その声離れてても　心はこの場所にある
sono koe hanaretete mo kokoro wa kono basho ni aru
Even if my voice is far away, my heart is here in this place
夢見て倒れて立ち上がれ
yume mite taorete tachiagare
We dream, and we fall down, but get right back up
全て賭けるのさ　Keep the faith
subete kakeru no sa Keep the faith
We're going to bet it all on this -- Keep the faith

誰も何も見ない振りで　君を傷つける
dare mo nani mo minai furi de kimi wo kizutsukeru
Everyone pretends that they don't see anything, and they hurt you
俺ら側に感じるだろう　君をそこから救い出すよ
orera soba ni kanjiru darou kimi wo soko kara sukuidasu yo
You can feel us nearby, can't you? We'll rescue you out from there

[聖rap]
Count down開始　5 to the 4
Count down kaishi 5 to the 4
Start the countdown 5 to the 4
Don't touchセンサー 3 to the 2
Don't touch sensaa 3 to the 2
Don't touch the sensor 3 to the 2
I don't wanna change the style, keep the faith
I don't wanna change the style, keep the faith
I don't wanna change the style, keep the faith
自分のpaceでrace これはGame
Jibun no pace de race kore wa Game
Race at your own pace, this is a game
そろそろ着火 Runaway 1 Lifeをかけた愛撫で Blahh...
Sorosoro chakka Runaway 1 Life wo kaketa aibu de Blahh...
Soon, the fire ignites Runaway 1 With a caress, I bet my life
Blahh...

だから近くに・・・ "Sweety"
Dakara chikaku ni... "Sweety"
That's why, close to you... "Sweety"

No! No! No!　You show me the faith
No! No! No!　You show me the faith
No! No! No!　You show me the faith
必ず　I'll keep it for you
kanarazu I'll keep it for you
I'll definitely keep it for you
一人じゃ明日見失うから
hitorija ashita miushinau kara
Alone, we'll lose sight of tomorrow, so
派手に叫ぶのさ　Keep the faith
hade ni sakebu no sa Keep the faith
Let's shout it out as loud as we can Keep the faith

敵無し不可能もなし
tekinashi fukanou mo nashi
With no enemies, and no impossibilities
飛ばすぜ燃え上がれ炎
tobasuze moeagare honoo
We'll fly on in high gear, and fuel on the flames
つまらねえ　毎日抜け出すぜ
tsumaranee mainichi nukedasu ze
We'll slip out of these monotonous days
固い約束さ　Keep the faith
katai yakusoku sa keep the faith
It's a solid promise -- Keep the faith

夢見て倒れて立ち上がれ　
yume mite taorete tachiagare
We dream, and we fall down, but get right back up
全て賭けるのさ　Keep the faith
subete kakeru no sa Keep the faith
We're going to bet it all on this -- Keep the faith

tis e OST of a nice funny jap. drama , Yukan club.
super funny n nice drama..
hmm..u can check it out..=D

oh ya..Fahrenheit got new song come out le..
it is call:小小大人物
MUST SUPPORT THEM!!!

DUN MISS ME!!KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT RULES!!LOLX>>

2007-12-01T03:11:00.000-08:00

BOO!!
haha..i totally screw up!!
the worse course i/c ever..tat's me!!!

ok fine..
i m nothing but a failure..
i feel so sad now..
so sad..
its so sad tat making me wanting to die..

HELLO!!
Wake uP!! tis is just a small tiny tweeny thingy in your life..
its just 1 day only ma.
everyone screw up wad..
there's this chinese saying: "Shi bai nai shi cheng gong zi mu"
meaning failure is Sucess's mother..
haha.. joking lars
it means failure is e key to sucess?
i not sure if it is correct sia..

Hmm..so i must be happy!!
i screw up so wad?
at most my conduct got a super big D or maybe a super big F.
so wad?
SJAB is one part of my life not totally the whole thing..

damn it!!
i feeling like crying..
argh..
my throat hurts..

i wanted to say :
To:LeePeng aka Ah TAn
Thanks for lending me your watch n wishing gd luck n keep on help me jia u!!

To:Naiimah
Thanks for wishing me good luck!!You're e most handsome DM ever!!!

To:LiPing aka Ah Lim
Thanks for keeping on helpin me jia u n wishing me gd luck!

To:Clarence
i cant believe you wish me good luck!! THanks lots !!

To:Qiu Yan, XingLiang, HuiFen
Thanks for wishing me gd luck n cheering me up!!I LOVE YOU GUYS!!
by the way sorry for leting you guys seeing me eating food in a super ugly manner.

hmm..still got 1 person i need to thank..
tats LOonY!!!!!!
To: Loon Nei Nei(Breast) ahem..she want me to call her like tat..LOLX!!
all i wanted to say to you is tat thank you n thank you n thank you..
when i feel nervous n scared, you cheer me up n tell me 2 jia u..
seriously without you cheering me up, i will most likely OOC liao.
THANK YOU!!! I LOVE YOU!! MUAKZ!!I M SO LUCKY TAT I HAVE MEET YOU!!

i m sorry tat i screw up.
but no point crying over spilled milk rite?

i know tat i completely screw up the whole thingy
but life still goes on rite?

i feel tat i m really very lucky to have friends tat keep on helping me JIA U!!
THank YOU!!!

DUN MISS ME!! KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT RULES!! LOLX!!>>

2007-11-30T00:11:00.000-08:00

ok i m nervous n scared!!
i can go in e freaking haunted house for dunno how many times
BUT i DUN WAN to be course i/c

come on, i m TASAI!!!
i wun lose to them so easily!!
i will WIN!!

BUT..
its so damn fucking scary!!!

DAMN IT!!
Y i so suai??
ARGH!!!
Good lo..
Ah lim can OOC.

HELLO?!
FOR the goodness sake, i m TASAI OK?!
How can i OOC just because i got tat damn post..
i m not WEAK!!
I M INVINCIBLE XINYING!!

ya ya ya i m scared ..
BAKA!!!
ARgh!!can anyone save me from tis?

COME ON!!! JIA U BA!!

Yesterday i was in cloud9 when sir say got tis overnight duty thingy..
BUT.. FUCK!!!
suddenly cannot..
when i noe i cannot particplate in e duty, i feel like ..
u noe tat kinda of feeling?
EG: e MC says u win den later say he say wrongly n actually u lose..

tis kinda of feelings SUCK!!

GRRR!!!

OK NOW!!
ANYONE TAT SAVE ME FROM TOMORO E COURSE I/C THINGY, I WILL YI SHENG XIANG XU!!
haha..JK JK>
i gone crazy le..
ok la..if anyone save me from tat dreadful thingy, i will do wadever u wan me 2 do.
like be maid..

Haiz..
tomoro i m fighting alone..
loon QiuYan Deb n Even AH Zhe also not there..
no one support me..
even though i know their spirits will be with me..
now i noe standing alone is so scary so sad so cold..

Anyway i , tsai xin ying, sincerely wanted to thank those people tat wish me gd luck!!THANK YOU!!

Shit..
i feel like crying..
but i know crying wun help..
it wun change..
i m still course i/c for tomoro..

wow..
i scold lots of bad words..
dun care le..
hu call me course i/c ..

JIA U BA!! JIA U BA!!
NO CHOICE!!
I M INVINCIBLE XINYING!!
tats me!! TASAI!!

DUN MISS ME!!KAT-TUN&FAHRENHEIT RULES!!!

2007-11-26T21:12:00.000-08:00

Yippy!!!
i finally go Escape le!!
Yay!!!

haha..
today QiuYan, Loony, LeePeng, Xingliang n me go to ESCAPE!!!
we meet at about 8++am in the morning at the BB interchange.
when we were about to go, we saw my PS.(platoon SGT)
i was e last 2 notice him den when we all tryin to walk faster so wun c him , he saw us or shld i say saw me?
its obviously me cox i wearing class tee.
Behind write so big XINYINGZ.
haha.. dun care..

den we board e MRT den we gone siao from there...
from jurong all e way to the end..
when e MRT is reaching the end, 1 part of e train is empty den we all sit down there like it is our house's sofa..
removing our slippers la, lie down there la..etc

we even play e SpongeBob campfire song.
siao le..muhahaha..
actaully tat part of train is not empty 1.
there is 1 gal there den she walked away after we play the campfire song.
haha...

we reached the end of the line, we go 7eleven n find some food 2 eat..

Finally we reached ESCAPE!!
after we buy tickets, we play the karts cox later lots of ppl den need 2 wait very long- Loony say 1.

the Karts so fun lo!!
starting i quite scared i will struck half away
but it turn out great
when i go on e swirl so SHOIK LO!!!
WEeEeEe~~!!
step on the gas n zoOoOm~!!
den later i go down the slope i bang onto the metal sideway..ouch!
when its time to stop, i almost forgot to bake..
anyway my parking skills not bad lo..haha..
never bang into other ppl!!

den we go plae inverter ( eh..i tink so..i forgot le=P)
half of me feel scared & half of me dun feel scared lo..weird..
most of the time we play inverter, i never open my eyes n grab e thingy super tightly..
quite scared tat i will drop down..
BUT i NEVER scream lo.
(NOTE: i not saying ppl hu scream is a bad thing . dun be mistaken)

den we play finish tis , only tan n me go inside haunted house.
we go inside n when we were about to turn, we saw e maintence ppl checking the machine thingy
den i accidently step on the maintence guy somewhere in the leg
he shoot me a super piss-off look lo
not really my fault ma..
its so damn dark inside the house ..
my night vision not good..grr..

anyway tan n me walk out n walk in again den e door guy said: u guys again?
haha..his face so funny la..haha..

den we play a thingy den u got to lie on it den its spin , not scary& its relaxing.
after tat, we play family rollercoaster..
its seems so not scary lo but when u were on it is a different thing.
i was like talking to QiuYan den it started in a quite rough way..
the ride was quite shoik but no really scary..
its thrilling!!
we ride tat 1 for dunno how many times..lolx..

den we go play Flipper.
tat 1 so sian 1 lo..just turn n turn n turn n turn n..
like tat only..

den we play e Choo Choo train..tan n Loon sit infront n keep on pullin e bell..
lol..den we all manage to get every1 2 get into e haunted house ..
when we enter e house, loon suddenly freaked out n i m struck there
cox tan is e first man cox she know e route liao & no1 wan be e first1
den i last 1 cox no one wan be last 1
loon is in front of me den she dun wan walk infront
actaully another thing is oso happenin, QiuYan dunno saw wads infront n she became scared n started pulling tan's collar..

i 1st time c loon freaked out lo
(Hey, Loon i not laughin at u or anything)
Loon was always very stable n calm lo..
so i asked if we can exit from here den we 2 go n ps e others..
lolx..

when they come out, we go play e carnival games
Tan help me win a red snake plushie!!
THANKS LOTS!!

still got lots of other crazy stuff..
like Tan getting e "POP"ing virus..laughing fits here n there..etc

so tired sia..
dun feel like reading first aid manual..
but no choice, i say i must win so must win!!!!

DUN MISS ME!!FAHRENHEIT & KAT-TUN ROCKS!!!LOLX>>

wahaha...

2007-11-25T03:33:00.000-08:00

wahaha...
i m ....GOING-TO-BE COURSE I/c!!!
haha..
first bukit batok corps member in Advance NCO tat become e Course i/c lo!!
amazing rite?!
dunno y so suai sia...

so apple , dun OOC la..
i oso kana Course i/c lei.
dun give up ma, we almost complete e course le.
Jia You ba!!!

Argh!!
being e course i/c is so scary lo..
grr...
i knew something was wrong when e Sir was reading the Routine Order of e day
he was like saying : " Course i/c : *pauses*Tay Xin Ying"

i was like so shock lo..
and e first thing came to my mind is that : OH SHIT!!

by the way, i m TSAI XIN YING NOT TAY!!!
argh!!!

haiz..jia u lo..
these nothing i can do 2 change it.

dun say those sad stuff le..

tomoro my friends n i going to ESCAPE!!!
Yippy!!!
ESCAPE, HERE WE ARE!!!

DUN MISS ME!!! FAHRENHEIT ROCKS!!! LOLX>>>

weird day..

2007-11-22T01:47:00.000-08:00

training finally start le!!
i m not sad because i sort of like first aid training.
i dunno why but i just simply like it.

anyway after training,when we were on our way to the bus interchange,the 3 SGTs tell me, must win!! cannot give up!! (i simplify it)
even if they never say anything , i wun give up!!
die die oso must participate!!
We must win!!!
no matter what its costs!!!
Jia You ba!!
We can do it!!
We're a champion team & a well oiled machine!
(haha..sounds familiar rite?)

ok fine i know it will be awkward if we lose but dun care le!!!
argh!!
JIA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha... wanted too much to win n den go crazy..
lolx..
anyway i started to like NaiNai more n more..maybe i will fall in love with her..
lolx!!!of course not la !!
i must be so damn crazy to for in love with NaiNai lo!!
i not les ok?!
i like..ahemm..cannot tell ..but is a boy not girl ..
wonder if he knows tat i like him.

can ask u guys something?
if u need to grade how scary i m ?
1[super not scary at all.]- 10[super duper scary like zhen zi(not the 1 in X-Family hor)XD]

dun worry i wun bite u or wad.
i promise i wun be angry n wun hate u for tis.
i tink i got tis super weird personality .

by the way i think i maybe a psycho killer in my past life.
haha..dun worry i wun go around killing ppl cox sometimes i m scared of blood..
sometimes only..very very seldom.

i find lots of nice songs lo!!
Go dongchengwei!!!
JIA LOTS OF U HOR!!!

DUN MISS ME!! LOLX>> FAHRENHEIT ROCKS!!

Search

2007-11-20T07:38:00.000-08:00

haha..i change song again..
this song is sing by Kamenashi Kazuya in DreamBoys 2006.
i like e meaning of e song ..but i cant find its English translation:(
u can watch Kamenashi sing tis song in e link below..got english subtittle=]
http://www.crunchyroll.com/showmedia?id=39930

Search by Kamenashi Kazuya
Toumei na kokoro dake ga
Namida no wake mo kikazuni sotto
Arukidasu

Tomadoi ya kanashimi sae mo
Nanimo kamo kiesaru
Sonna kokoro no
Kurushisa wo

Oikomarete
Ikiba ga nakunaru
Daremo hontou no jibun ni kizukazu
Namida wa yagate hateru

Kurui dashita
Haguruma ga kuzureru
Harisake sou na
Kurai yami no hibi

Nani mo motomezu tada
Jibun no sugata sagashi dasu
SEARCH

Kurayami kara nukedasezu ni iru
Shinjiru koto sae dekireba sonna ni
Ushinau mono wa nai to

Kabe wo koete
Arata na michi aruku
Takusan no mono
Te ni suru tame yuku

Eranda michi de tada
Jibun no sugata sagashi dasu
SEARCH

btw i saw tis video in youtube..
it is acted by KAT-TUN.
super funny lo!!!LOLx!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o1Q_8hpsers
its so funny n i laugh like a mad person hu just escape from e mental hospital.XD

anyway i gona go watch 28 weeks later le..
so shiok sia!!!

DUN MISS ME!!FAHRENHEIT ROCKS!!LOLX>>

2007-11-19T07:42:00.000-08:00

i dunno y i m posting something again..
i just feel like it ba.
weirdo..

today i watch Resident Evil: Extinction & I know hu kill me.
i was eating lunch den i feel super sian
and i found the Resident Evil disc so i decided to challenge myself if i can watch e movie n eat at the same time.

in the end i manage to watch e movie n not threw up!!
pro ba?haha..i think tat e movie was kinda of touching n sad ..but not tat disgusting ..
i m crazy rite?

after tat i still feel sian so i decided to watch i know hu kill me.
at first its not disgustin or wad.. at first i can only see lindsay lohan actin sexy so i thought: hmm...confirm not scary or disgusting 1 la..must be another lame movie..

after awhile i was getting a little bored n went to get some ice water& something to munch.
when i was bak,lindsay lohan was kidnapped n was tied to those surgery bed.
i thought they wun show any disgusting part so i continue eating my snack. den tat psycho killer went n cut her hand up, i was so shock n shout e Fword.
they show it man!!! my maid come in n ask if i ok anot.

e image is so eewww... n it stay etched in my mind now..
i never threw up but i cant continue eating.
i wonder wad happend to people hu eat popcorn in e cinema during e movie.
beside cutting up people , there are still other eeww images..

after i watch finish tis movie, i suddenly thought tat my tution teacher coming so i go do e tution hw.
i was writing some algebra equation n out of sudden i saw my finger got some blue stuff on it..

for a moment i thought my finger is dropping off like wad happend to lindsay lohan in e movie , den i look carefully , it is still attached to my hand.
phew..scare me sia..anyway e blue stuff is my pen ink.

wow.. so fast 12 something le..
oh god please dun give me nightmares ..
anyway i wanna watch 28 weeks later cox liping aka ah lim aka apple aka ah po say its disgusting n giv her nightmares!!
yay!! i wanna watch.. mayb i watch it during lunch time..
and eating spaghetti...haha..hmm..gd idea!
anyone wanna join me?=D

oh ya.LiPing if u r readin tis pls lend me e disc asap(if possible)

ah..actaully i write so much cox i dun wanna go sleep..
oh great i m scared now.
things just so great!!
got to go sleep liao..
my grandma gona sleep le..
i dun wanna be alone..

DUN MISS ME!!LOLX>> FAHRENHEIT ROCKS!!

low..

2007-11-19T05:13:00.001-08:00

haha..i finally found the english translation!!

Kizuna(Bond) by Kamenashi kazuya
No matter how much they think about what's ahead
No one can see the real thing
Emptiness? Something blocks my heart
I just repeated my mistakes

It's alright to take it one step at a time, not letting go of my hand
Because we can continue living the days that we walked together during
Even if we are drug along until we get worn out
In that place, at that time, there is this undisappearing bond

So that I don't get lost amidst the passing time
I just missed colliding with my true feelings
Her feelings color my heart
Meeting her was the miracle that I was looking for

I could see a light amidst the sadness that was so great
That I couldn't even stand still, because we are connected
It's alright if you lie to me, it's alright if you cry
In that place, at that time, there is this undisappearing bond

It's alright to take it one step at a time, not letting go of my hand
Because we can continue living the days that we walked together during
Even if we are drug along until we get worn out
In that place, at that time, there is this undisappearing bond

its in the soundtrack of GokusenII.
this song is oso written by him!!

i m feeling kinda low these days..
can any1 cheer me up?

haiz..hu wan to tok me tis kinda of person..
i used to think of ways to die.(actually i m still doing it now)
but i dun have guts to do it..n i dun wanna die..
kinda of weird rite?haha..

whenever i had to go to attend something new like new tution or course, i tell myself i must talk to people.i must make new friends n i must be friendly n stuff like tat..
in the end i m still siting in a corner ,keeping quiet like i m e wall

i WANT TO TELL PEOPLE TAT I LIKE TO TALK. I WANT TO BE FRIENDS WIF U.
I WANT TO TELL PEOPLE TAT I CAN BE FUN NOT BORING..
i just cant do it..
anyway i'm used to it..it does not really matter..

if i did not join SJAB , i will most likely stay at my home n hide there 24hours.
hide there forever n never ever come out..
my mum always tell me tats impossible.

does anyone really come here n read wad i write?

2007-11-16T05:18:00.000-08:00

Yo! i m bak from hong kong..
did not buy much things but i take quite alot photos..
now too lazy to upload it...haha..

haha... i change the song again!
it is called Kizuna.
sing and written by Kamenashi Kazuya.
its is one of the song from the jap. drama, Gokusen II.
i will try to find out abt the meaning abt e song..
hope tat u will think its nice...

streaming results come out le..
i got into 3E1..same class wif Sherry, JiaYi, Angline,QiJie, William etc...
oh ya..oso same class wif QiuYan !!
hope tat she will tok 2 me or else..i will be lonely lonely Christmas..merry merry Christmas..
funny ma?Lolx...

i m kinda of dumb these days..
dun even know square root of -4 is an imaginary no..

i used to think things will became better if i died..
BUT NOW I WILL TRY TO LIVE SURVIVE!!
I DUN WANNA DIED!!
I WILL TRY MY VERY VERY BEST TO LIVE!!!

OMIGOD!!!
tomoro got tat u-know-tat-super-scary-cant-say-its-name course!!!!

Haha...today i still at bus say so loud..
I LOVE ADVANCE!!! WOOTS~~!!!!
come on ppl!! lets say tis out loud!!!
siao liao...
haha...
HAHA>>>

oh ya..if anyone wan burn down any camps pls find me...HAHA...
Siao SIao SIAo SIAO me!!!
GOIN CRAZY!!!!!!!!YAY~!!

DUN MISS ME!!I LOVE ADVANCE!!!!actaually i dun really mean it..

2007-11-04T02:32:00.000-08:00

haiz..
i just finish watching a short jap. drama..or shld i say movie?
i think its a super short jap. drama.
its about this guy who got this weird illness that only 7 people in this world got it. (he's 8th)
tis illness will made the person's bones sort of 'melt away'...
this guy who got it had a hole in his skull cox tat part of his skull 'melt away'
and it cause a clot in his head which compress his nerves
he need to go operation to remove tat clot or it will cause his right eye to go blind..
finally he reached a stage where both of his eyes gone blind.
even though he was getting weaker n weaker, he still did not give up n encourage his frends not to give up their dreams...

normally i wun watch this kinda of sad drama, knowing the guy will die.
i dunno y go watch lo..
Argh..its making me feel sad..aww..

the reason y i watch is becox the guy that act in tis drama is so shuai lo..
his name is Kamenashi Kazuya 亀梨和也.
he is from a band called KAT-TUN.
he is the same age wif Aaron if i m not wrong..

aww...its making me sad..damn it! i wun watch tis kinda of drama anymore!!!>_<
hmm..must cherish people around you..

i oso watch another super short jap. drama..
its those detective kinda..
oso acted by Kame.
its veri exciting lo..
finally something happy =]

i today veri suai lo..
caught in between the crossfire of my dad n my grandma..
Warning !! Next time adults quarrel better find some where to hide..
argh!! none of my business lo den kana scolded by them..
so bu shuang >_<

DUN MISS ME!!LOLX>>FAHRENHEIT RAWKS!!=D

2007-11-01T06:08:00.000-07:00

5 days later i will be in Hong Kong !!
YaY!! Shop till i drop!!!
by the way i anyone c me online from 6 nov to 11 nov, something is wrong.
either someone hack into my account or my com go short circuit le..haha..

this is wad i wan to do when i m in HongKong:
1.go sightseeing
2.of course..SHOPPING!!
3.buy X-Family Cds if there is...
4.and...SHOPPING!!!
5.SHOPPING!!!

anyone hav any ideas wad should i do when i m in HongKong?

DUN MISS ME!!LOLX>>FAHRENEHIT RAWKS!!

Nothing to do..

2007-10-30T18:59:00.000-07:00

Sian...nothing to do...
half way through the maths worksheet..

still got 3 chinese newspaper review..ew..must write more than 300 words..haizz

Photos that i take during the duty:

nice ma?

i try to take a picture of an aeroplane flying but it was too fast >_<

actually.. is i too slow..dunno y lately i sort of become slow..

DUN MISS ME!! LOLX>>

Over night Duty

2007-10-28T00:02:00.001-07:00

Yay!! i m bak from the over night duty!!
at first, i thought it gona be very scary and i was so nervous..
Although it was tiring , i found it quite fun.

On our way to SJAB HQ..
LeePeng, Huifen, Debbie, QiuYan,XingLiang, Loony and me manage to squeeze into the crowded train.
We did some funny stuffs and laugh loudly in the train making it super noisy...haha..

Finally we reached Lavender.
As we were crossing a bridge, i feel that someone pull my sling bag ...(LeePeng and me is the last pair)
i feel sort of weird and thinkin if i should tell the others about it..
i told Loony and LeePeng about it and they were freaked out..especially Loony cox at that moment , a lady with long hair walked past her..ahem, tat lady is a human being..

Finally we reached HQ!!
we need to gather in lecture room 2-3 (they are linked) for a briefing for the next day duty.
i picked the seat that is directly beside the skeleton ..suai...
den we listen to the briefing...

after the briefing , we all go eat supper.
Got tis sir (GRRRR!!!!) bring in you tiao and ask if we wan cox he take a whole bunch (c he so greedy!!)
we never reply him den he walk away.
we den decided to take some you tiao ...
we take e you tiao and sit near the door and eat den we realised we never take the soya milk..
When we were about to take the soya milk , the sir come in and he was holding 1 packet of soya milk..
he was lookin at us den we all started to laugh..haha
i think tat he feel like we are copying him..he take wad we also take wad.
i heard him say to 1 of our ma'am : your cadets very cute.
haha..so funny!!

den later we decided to eat nasi lemak..
4 ppl share 1 packet lo..den we still sit at 1 corner and eat.. i tink we look like beggars lo..haha..
den the 'cafe' got like 1 big box of nasi lemak..yet we 4 ppl share 1 packet..
if others c , i think they will feel tat someone ill-treated us..HAHA..XD

12:00am
we sit down in 1 big circle and listen to the radio about ghost tory..
zhou gong jiang gui...
ew..so scarry la..
after a few minutes we dun dare to listen le..

dunno do wad den we decided to go n sleep cox must woke early e next day.
the others tell me tat i m the first 1 to sleep..haha..
den after some time, my body started to ache mayb becox e room too cold le..
i woke up and saw XingLiang and the others are missing.
Oh ya.. Loony ..i tink she is sleepin...

2:30am++
i went out of the room and found the others at the corridoor..
we all den go to the space near the carpack ...
the others chit chat .. i try to sit down the staircase and sleep..other zone ppl doin pumpin , running around the carpack..lihai!!

3:34am++
finally i cant stand it and sleep on the sofa..

4:00am++
they all call me and LeePeng wake up ( she sleep beside me)
we all go bak e room and take stuff , go to toilet and started washing up, change to Full-U.

5:00am++
leave for the Changi Exhibition Centre.
on the bus, i sit wif Loony and try 2 tok 2 her..
she was so high lo!!!
i was so tired tat i fell alseep ...hello!! 5am...so tired lo..

6:00am++
den we eat breadfast and leave for the specific first aid post ..
i was in the same group with HuiFen.
Our first aid post was the best : got chairs , shelther and MOST IMPORTANT!!! FANS!!
Loony suai lo...umbrellas..

then the first post tat mi n huifen were station at was opposite the airport where i can see lots of planes flying to other places...
i tried to get some pics but the aeroplanes were too flying too fast..
Fahrenheit are in one for the planes lo...

i read the newspaper and saw that Fahrenheit went bak to taiwan at 6:00am .
actually Priscillaa n me decided to send Fahrenheit away after we found out when they were leaving..
Anyway i sort of got send them off ...except they were in the plane and i never get to c their faces..
Argh!!Hey Prissy next time let go n c Fahrenheit if they come to Singapore okay?

Fahrenheit rawks!!
Aaron and Jiro the best!!!
MUST SUPPORT THEM!!!

DUN MISS ME!! LOLX>>LOVE FAHRENHEIT>>

2007-10-26T02:27:00.000-07:00

today got tis commitee meeting..
its kinda of weird...the atmosphere is quite tense..
anyway tis is wad i m doing during the meeting:

10:20
*writing on my paper*
hello this is training assistant.
i dunno wad i m doin.
haha...
wad m i supposed to do?dunno.
lonely. (cox i sit quite far away from my other friends n e speaker)
ok.ok. now must concenrate.
how to concenrate?
sleepy..ZzZzZzZz
Huh? wad they toking abt?
i dunno...

10:40
*still writing things in my paper.*
haha..
i still dunno wad i m doing.
haha..
the others are still toking..
Yay!!
i know wad m i doing le!
writing crap crap.crap.crap.
Lol>>

tats all ..i never continue writing le cox keep on writing to yrself is quite boring.
then i started to think of X-family..
finally the meeting end..
afterwards we go UG room c the files...
den go home!!

Haiz.. i always tell myself tat meeting later must play attention dun do other stuff.
But i always do other stuff instead...Bad girl!!

LOL>>
anyway today before school started , Liping (lim) show me some Aaron's , Jiro's , Danson's pics..
SO SHUAI & CUTE LO!!!!^^
later we show Prissy the pics den she...
Opps!! she say she dun wan me to say her name out here..Opps!! Sorry!! Jk..JK...
LOL>>

Must be happy cox today is LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!
GoodBye 2E5!!! Miss U guys!!

Lookin forward to overnight duty..( not really..i always hav a kind of phobia of stay overnight outside n i DUNNO WHY!!!)HELP ME!!! ARGH!!

Dun Miss Me!!LOL>>

2007-10-25T06:11:00.000-07:00

Haha..today keep on talkin about Jiro and Aaron wif Prissy n Liping(lim)..so fun lo!!
Prissy say she keep on saying she saw Aaron's face everywhere...haha..
We all agreed that Aaron's eyes are soOoOo cute!! N Jiro's lips look sexy..
LOL>>

haiz..now X-family end le. miss xiu meng zu xia tian xia yu etc..
hope that there will be x-family(2)..

by the way i got this 'excellent work attitude' cert. i was so SHOCK when i heard my name.. when i was walking up to the stage , i was so scared that i heard the wrong name.

Lookin forward to the overnight duty!!
Fahrenheit rawks!!

DUN MISS ME!!LOLX>>

2007-10-24T02:54:00.000-07:00

Yay!! i know how 2 change the song le..haha..

just finish watching last ep of x-family..haiZ.. never show xia tian meng zu they all go the golden demension...anyway the ending still quite nice1. now X-family end le..hope that there will be x-family(2)...
Fahrenheit rawks!!!

hey anyone got any nice tv series can recommend me?

Ahh..this week got overnight duty..will it be scary?exciting?anway its my FIRST overnight duty.PLease let it be a fun 1..Jia You ba..oh ya..hope that there won't be any RV ppl there..its kinda of awkard ..

BY the way, my class position: 5th ..or izzit 6th?
my school position:32th
not bad ba?i never study 1 lo..i keep on watchin x-family during that exam period :p
I GOT IMPROVE!!!!YAY!!!special thanks to X-family!!

i want to say this to someone in our class who say that fahrenheit suck , their songs like shit , their voice not nice.:

Hello? you dun like den dun comment. wad's yr problem? if their songs not nice den how come they can win awards?! it is so obivous that i like fahrenheit lo. then , y do u have to say all those words to me?! u dun like me den say la..dun go and insult others lo!!!u know who u are!!

dun understand y ppl like that1 lo. >_<
Argh!!!

Hope that i can get bak my result slip asap.

FAHRENHEIT RAWKZ!!

Aaron SoOoO shuai&Cute!!!

Jiro sOoOoO shuai&Hot!!!

Dun Miss Me!! LOL>>

2007-10-21T06:29:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHHH...
now i m choosing my subject combinations...
i have already chosen the combinations i wanted
BUT...i scared i will regret it later...ARGH...

OK..now i m going to submit it...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..
Ahhh..i still dun dare to submit..my left side of brain and my right side of my brain is debating ...

OK!!! tsai xin ying , go submit it ba!!GOOOOO!!!!!

YAY!!! i submit le....

DUN MISS ME!!!LOLX>>

2007-10-20T00:57:00.000-07:00

Argh!!!

Dunno wad to do...

SIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!

Watch lots of videos..tv series..still so sian..
YAY!! i watch X-family ep 53 le....still got 2 more to go...haiz...so fast going to end le...

haha...i was so bored so i went and destroy my bro's stuff..he was so angry wif me. whenever i made him angry , i always told him to forgive and forget.. But me? i always go for tis sentence : a tooth for a tooth.
My bro was like such a poor thing having me , tis crazy weirdo, living with him..no choice ba...suai..

i must apologised to liping (both tan n lim), Loon and Huifen. We were talking to each other in MSN. i was keep on typing rubbish crap etc.. sort of annoying them.Sorry! didn't mean it. i was like so high and gone crazy. Actually i escape from metta home 1...hahahaaa...Jokin..Jokin..

By the way , i tink i made them gone crazy oso.

i said : i m going to set up a class . skills like pulling other ppl's hair and bittin ppl will be taught there.
Loon: i m already the vip there

haha.... Looney oso siao liao..

Beware ppl!! dun sit with me in a double decker bus.. Muhaha..Wahaahaa..

Haiz.. u guys suai ..have me tis kinda of friend..
Anyway i tink i broke the world record le..being hate by 7-6 friends at 1 shot..Wow. i tink in the whole world only i can do it ba... i wonder if i died , will anyone cry 4 me? will be tears of joy?

so wad i m a bad person..i can still survive.i will survive.

Blah..Blah..

2007-10-15T06:27:00.000-07:00

Haha... Just finish flooding Loony's tag board..Muhaha..

Actually, Brown Sugar Machiatto quite nice 1. BUT X-Family NICER!!! haha.. Sian!! By the way, the uniform in Brown Sugar Machiatto look very nice lo.Their class is like so co-ordinated and peaceful not like my class..haiz..... is the 棒棒堂 and 黑涩会美眉 act 1... Got 1 guy inside called Prince (Wang Zi) is quite cute 1lo..the show very funny!!:D

Haiz..X-family going to end le..55 eps seem to be very short..

Sian!! Tomoro still got school!! Argh! Ouch!! i just now injured my finger..it was bleeding and i dunno. My mum was like why my shirt got a brownish red stain..den i saw my finger bleeding..I don't even know how i injured my finger..haha.. became very retard ...

SIAN!!!!!! but i like it!! sian is better than stress!!

Hope that tomoro will be a great day!!!

Dun Miss Me!!!haha.... :D

2007-10-13T08:28:00.000-07:00

Today go out with QiuYan..had a super fun time!! I bought a X-family behind-the-scene book..its so funny lo.

Just finish watching X-family ep48 , it's so sad...Imagine : People started to forget things about you , dunno who you are...thats so scary lo..helpless and dunno wad to do..

By the way, after going out with QiuYan , i went to Grandma house.. i dun really like to go to my Grandma house cox no one talk to me and i m so not familar with the people there..My childhood memories are soooo not nice... today, i went there and i need 2 greet my uncle and forgotten how 2 address him.i was like stun there and pause while den say out..so dumb la.

My other cousins were like so close with 1 another..well except me.. they all go to 1 room and play together ba . i dunno cox i never step into that room ages le. i was e only 1 sitting 1 corner read my own book..get used to it le..i m always alone .. living in my own world..

i remenber i used to like going to my Grandma house...just becox last time i was so damn young and had no manners , i was being sort of 'being kicked out of the crowd"..HELLLO!!! i m only about primary 1++ ma...tats y i dun have tink for others ma. but thanks to them , wadever i do now i will try as hard as possible to tink for others..but sometime tink too much go short circuit..Thank you.

wow..if they see this post, i will mostly be bash by them the next time i go my Grandma house..dun care!i remenber just becox i cry alot den they wun let me go into their room. i was like alone standing outside the room , staring at the door, listening to the noises they made when they were playing....i was in the toilet , i heard 1 of my cousins saying insulting words about me..well that was me..the most selfish weak dumb unwanted freaking cousin, fatso Tsai XinYing.

Wadever..i m different now. i m not the gal that dunno how 2 get bak at others , not the gal that keep on crying and did nothing. I M Tsai Xin Ying that will get bak at those tat insult me, will not hide and cry alone anymore..I know how to FIGHT bak.

The Meeting

2007-10-12T04:20:00.000-07:00

Today got SJAB meeting. I know whats my post le..shld i be happy? Yupps, i should. Afterall that wads i wish for at first , did i? Just dunno why i feel kind of sad...or izzit disapointed? haiz... Anyway , since i m given this post, den i will work hard ..even though its an assitant..

I m going to show people that even though i m a super tiny star on that big piece of sky , i will be the most shiny 1. Actually, do i have to work hard? i can most likely dump all the job stuff to e Head (Jia Zhe)...he dose not need an assitant ba.. since he so smart. *hey i m not being sarcastic, ok?!*

Know the dates for the SUPER DUPER SCARY ADVANCE NCO COURSE ... OMG!! its so damn scary lo!!!

By the way, i remenber someone told me that when i angry or sad , the people around will also be affected.. Then today got this person was like some kinda of not feeling good . i was somehow trying a little bit to sort of cheer her up...well, it doesn't work..after that when another person came, that another person was sort of feeling better ..see..its not the method that matters. its who that matters. but i wanted to tell this person that do u know when u sad , it just kind of affects others too. if possible, please be consider.Thank you...

dun miss me..( who wants to miss me , the most disgusting person on earth?no one ba.)

2007-10-11T05:59:00.000-07:00

Finally , today gona be over soon...haiz..got back results liao...quite bad 1 lo...anyway i never study alot ma. But i got study geo, if geo SA2 come bak not good, den i going 2 hate myself..Argh..

Today is Sec 1 Maths Day...i thought will be quite sian 1 lo. But its quite fun. i tink the Sec 1 tink i weird weird 1...they must be thinking :" aiyo this weirdo hor..." ha..ha... dunno why recently i was like too high le.. i was shock when Ms Ng treat us drinks lo. She was smiling all the way..But when during moring lesson time , she was like practically look so bu shuang lo. If she lesson time can smile more, maths lesson won't be so sian.
She was very funny lo..She called William , Prince William . haha...den later when he come in, we all call him like tat also..LOL...

Tomoro gona be a great day ba!!!Must go watch X-family!!!

DUN MISS ME!!!!!!!(well, no one miss me anywayz..)

THANKS TO NGAI FONG!!!!!

2007-10-10T06:52:00.001-07:00

Super Special thanks to NGAI FONG aka NAI NAI aka PIGGY FONG for helping me making the blog 'alive' !!!!!

Next time, anyone need help to make their blog pls find her.........LOL...

Thank you Nai Nai!!!!!